Friday, October 14, 2011

E.T.

me has no ever see footloose. me jus kno them should have no re make it. me read today that them is remake E.T. !!!! me guess them is run out ideas for movies. me question is why do we not start make movies bout real persons. um documentrys. ? ever one has a story an ever story is just as mazing as the next peoples. it jus what me think, so it no that important, or great. it jus is.

me got me phone. me has no numbers tho, so if u has no give me you number an want to, inbox me. an whoever keep call me, u can keep on call all u want but me is no go answer cuz me is no able to um speak. no joke. me do no answer me phone any way if me no know the number or it is unknown or the other word. if it is real important leave message an one of the agents will may be, follow up on it. no joke. me phone me use for text. it is lot easy to text than type. me get me friends, on can have 50, stat updates, google+, an twitter updates. me get me facebook messages, most time, an it much more simple for me.

me nite went ok. me got real down for bit, an real want give up. me no kno what persons no get, ME IS IN HOSPITAL!, therefore me can no possible be the cause of ever thing that is go on in you life. but if want blame me go head. me is no ok wit it, sense there is no much me can do bout it.

so me has be hear over an over an over that me spell is bad an it real frustrate me. me hear, u spell like kid, what matter u dumb, on retards spell like that, an blah blah blah. me is tire of hear it. it is no good to hear those things. me is dumb but jus bit more than me use is. me could be consider retard, me is no normal. me spell like kid cuz that is how me mind is work right now is like that of a kid.
me say to jasi that me is try real hard to get stuff right, eve if it no make sense to me. if me do right me will get right. then her say no no no! you learn right by do wrong. an her say if persons no like or get frustrate me should say  them to eff off. tru story. her is right. so me is no go try so hard to get it all right, instead me is go work on it bit at time. so if you  no like it, deal wit it or be gone.

jasi had nother great point. her is good at make her points. me is like baby in way. me has forgot lot stuff an me can no do lot stuff, so me has to relearn lot stuff. me can no do it all on me own too, or most, an that is where me need, yes me is say it, ME NEED YOU HELP. teach me. if me mess up or do some wrong show me what me did wrong an show me how do it right. if me ask question, yes me is go say it, drop to me level, kid level, an answer it. some questions are go be hard ones, an me is no go get u answer, but that ok, least u is give me chance to try an learn.

me has one doctor that is an asshole, yep me say it an me will say it gain, him is an asshole! him has be one of the persons say to me that me spell like kid, me must be real dumb if me can no spell no right. today him say to me that me is no try hard nuff, that me must deserve this. him say me is no thing more that a nother people that is go leech off others. him say if persons were smart them stick me in  nursing home or in the ground. me no know why him is so mean, but him no like me. him me hard ever see. cept last few days him an one the other doctors have be fill in for me main doctor. him say ever one is go hate me cuz them is go have to push me round in wheel chair, or them is go have this or that. him is jerk. me hope no one hate me tho. me is try me best. an if me need wheel chair me will learn to push me in it. so that when me do have to use it others will no have no thing to get frustrate over. now steps may be dif story. lol. me is suppose to get me wheel chair today or morrow. then me can decorate it. ya!

me need find beanie. me keep say this but it is go start get cold outside, real cold. so me need to get a winter jacket, gloves, an a stock cap. may be me get boots too. me is use ok in winter an no as cold as eve one else, but this year may be different. but like bambam, (bam bAM) LOL, say weight loss have lot to do wit it. me is gain me weight back. before it snow me will be over or close to 112lbs.

in bout an hour me bandages come off for good. then wednesday me get to take shower or get clean. me can no wait. me is stink gain. lol.

bambam, (BAM bam), an me is pose to have a movie date. me has find 3 movies that me think her may like that me has no see. if no then her can pick movie. lol.
me say wit stephen for bit other day an him is like when you get out we is go throw party. lol. ash say me him loves LOVES ice cream, me do too. so maybe we have ice cream party. lol, jk. me do love me some ice cream tho. ash say her is go fix me food. so me is go get me weight back. haha.

it is so weird for me to think that me is go need help wit lot of stuff. that me has to have help wit o most ever thing. me has pretty much be do things on me own since me can member. it so weird to think me is go have to have help from me friends an, laugh a lil, family. if me have no help then me will figure out how do stuff on me own. me is real kind um partial? to this, as me is use to have to do all on me own.

me is go have to get over me weird thing esp when me move to wa. hugs is no thing me is no use to. me is use to physical contact but no of that kind. - when me was little an me mom would be all strung out, drunk, an high, an one me sibs make mistake, me mom would go to punish them, me would alway take them punishment for them. same when it came to me dad. it then jus got to point where if them was mad me sibs would no eve be thot bout. - so me is go have to get use to place wit no fight. living where me live even if u is no fight in u home at the moment there is fight go on outside. ghetto. me can no say how many time me has wake up an there be lites flashing thro me window from police cars. this is jus me guess 2 of the thing me is go have get use to.

me is get more an more ok wit idea of no be able take bubbles wit me. it still no fun but her is happy here. me miss her lay right by me head. our heads right next to one nother. her gets under covers wit me an cuddles. it will be way weird to sleep wit out her there to cuddle wit. an her is so excited to see me wake in morn. her alway greets me!. it is some me will miss.

me friend Jamie, him no do believe in god. him say for me to watch the god who was no there on youtube. him say me need to get both sides of story. so me is go watch it.

ash n stephen are get marry real soon. me is happy for them. sad me can no be there, but all the more happy for them.

final me health. me temp is up to 103.9. me is still no able move well. me is glad me have me phone, it make things bit easy to do stuff. them had put me oxygen up again. it is now 85% an me is still use mask. ok by well me mean at all. me is so weak an me no get why. me is still alway tire. me did get good sleep last 2 nites. me is still have weird dreams but them is no that bad. cept the one where all me friends thot me was lie an beat crap out me. ya, that was no a good dream. me is still on soft an liqid food. iv for water. me body hurts. me head real hurts. ah well tho.

me is still got smile on me face. me is in a slow part of me adventure. it is rough to endure, but it would no be much of an adventure if it was no times like this.


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