yesterday me blog me sound very frustrate an like a jerk. me is a jerk. a big one. an me do not care. no joke.
me got to talk wit ash a bit yester night. me think me made her mad tho. me was hope to get to talk to stephen, but me think him is real busy an him need him sleep so him can feel better.
me has few friends that are go thro some hard times an it seems like there is nothing me can do to help. it frustrates me.
me dad found out that it is just him alternator, or him hope that is all it is. me sister has an abscess in her throat. me family is all mad that me is not there. them say me do not care, or me would make an effort, an that me is not a good sister.
this day has be kind of a long day. me was up til 4 am. me just could not sleep. me sleep til 11. me tv broke an them is work on get new one, so me got out of interview feed.... (sarcastic) it is so sad. watched wizards of waverly place for while. then me napped til 1 30ish. at 3 me was told me sister was in hospital. 4 me fever broke. hope it is for good this time.
me feel better wit the fever gone. the pain game real has not changed much. me bad moments have real went down to maybe one or two a day. them say this may be a thing that happen eve once in while. me has not be puke lots. few time a day. physically me is get better, me think, me hope. personally me still feel like a horrible person.
me is frustrate wit the fact that me cannot take care of me friends. me cannot find a single way to make any part of their pain a little lighter. i hate it. just the way me hate that i cannot be there wit me family.
look like me will get out here the week of thanksgiving. if anyone is have ham, me would love some! me is ready for turkey too. me is ready for real food. steak sounds real good.
me is not sure what me is do for me weekend. sleep me know that. but me is not sure. real have no plans. so anyone want to do something?....
me is go to hate say this but it is how me feel. me feel that me should stay off facebook an me phone for while an just let me friends be. me feel things wold be lot better for them. nothing bout me is help anyone. i just feel that if anything me is make things worse for persons.
me cannot access me netflix or youtube or pandora. sadness. some reason it is not work for now. so me is stuck wit the tv them did replace. me is glad for that. or me would real be bore out me mind.
one of the nurses is bring me a strawberry milkshake. it is go be yum. me is glad. but it is secrete so no tell, lol.
life is not always easy, an when you are sick it is really not easy. if it had not be for my friends, i would have not make it this far, or prob even be here. them are what gives me hope. them are the reason why me is press on in my adventure.
me got to talk wit ash a bit yester night. me think me made her mad tho. me was hope to get to talk to stephen, but me think him is real busy an him need him sleep so him can feel better.
me has few friends that are go thro some hard times an it seems like there is nothing me can do to help. it frustrates me.
me dad found out that it is just him alternator, or him hope that is all it is. me sister has an abscess in her throat. me family is all mad that me is not there. them say me do not care, or me would make an effort, an that me is not a good sister.
this day has be kind of a long day. me was up til 4 am. me just could not sleep. me sleep til 11. me tv broke an them is work on get new one, so me got out of interview feed.... (sarcastic) it is so sad. watched wizards of waverly place for while. then me napped til 1 30ish. at 3 me was told me sister was in hospital. 4 me fever broke. hope it is for good this time.
me feel better wit the fever gone. the pain game real has not changed much. me bad moments have real went down to maybe one or two a day. them say this may be a thing that happen eve once in while. me has not be puke lots. few time a day. physically me is get better, me think, me hope. personally me still feel like a horrible person.
me is frustrate wit the fact that me cannot take care of me friends. me cannot find a single way to make any part of their pain a little lighter. i hate it. just the way me hate that i cannot be there wit me family.
look like me will get out here the week of thanksgiving. if anyone is have ham, me would love some! me is ready for turkey too. me is ready for real food. steak sounds real good.
me is not sure what me is do for me weekend. sleep me know that. but me is not sure. real have no plans. so anyone want to do something?....
me is go to hate say this but it is how me feel. me feel that me should stay off facebook an me phone for while an just let me friends be. me feel things wold be lot better for them. nothing bout me is help anyone. i just feel that if anything me is make things worse for persons.
me cannot access me netflix or youtube or pandora. sadness. some reason it is not work for now. so me is stuck wit the tv them did replace. me is glad for that. or me would real be bore out me mind.
one of the nurses is bring me a strawberry milkshake. it is go be yum. me is glad. but it is secrete so no tell, lol.
life is not always easy, an when you are sick it is really not easy. if it had not be for my friends, i would have not make it this far, or prob even be here. them are what gives me hope. them are the reason why me is press on in my adventure.
My dear,
ReplyDeleteYour friends could not be by your side while you have been in the hospital, even though they wanted to be able too, but they were able to keep in contact with you on Facebook and by texting. You can help lift up your friends that are not doing well by finding out how they are, by praying for them, by showing that you care.
By dropping off of Facebook you will worry everybody so I don't think that is the greatest idea. We would all go crazy worrying about you.
I am sorry to hear that your family feels that you are selfish. Really????? It is your primary job to take care of yourself to make sure that you get better. If you keep trying to care of everyone else, you will take much longer to heal. You cannot be or do everything for your family. Your job is to rest and GET BETTER! Do not worry about them for now (I know, easier said than done.)they should be there for you and supporting you! Okay, enough of the mom lecture...
I am so glad that your fever has broken and that you will be moving to a regular room. Hopefully you will have more contact with the outside world.
I continue to keep you in my prayers and think of you all the time.
With love,
Mama Canady