Monday I will be going back to my dads house. It was going to happen sooner or later. And if I would have known what I do now a few weeks ago, I would have saved a lot of trouble and just stayed in st jo.
I do not get god at all.…. I think god hates me.
I am really frustrated right now and there is a lot I should say, but I cannot.
My dad is coming to get me on Monday, yay! I get to go home to an empty house, to a mess, to having to do everything on my own.
People think I am depressed, that I am never happy, but really I am happy most the time, I have a lot of trouble understanding things, and those are the things I blog about. There is a difference between trying to understand something and being depressed or sad. Yeah there are times I am sad but I spend a lot of time just trying to understand what is going on around me.
I watched hotel Rwanda, great movie….but people are fools. War is dumb. Mankind is killing itself and for what, to prove that one man is better than another? I wonder when we will get it through our heads that no one man is worth more than another, that we are all equal. I think we need to spend less time fighting and trying to prove who is better and more time helping one another out, trying to improve the world we live in. we are fools and that will not change until this race decides to grow up.
I think I need to take a nap. Me and peter. And cady. Or just watch the storm thro my window. I need to disappear into something other than my own head.
I read something the other day that basically said tell the ones you love that you love them often, because you cannot tell them enough and you may never get the chance to tell them again. Telling someone you love them is one of the best things anyone can receive.
I believe in this. So I tell people all the time. It just sucks that more times than not it is not said back.
I did not get that nap in. I did get to talk to jasi for a good while today. She is pretty awesome. She is someone I can talk to and she understands. And she just talks to me. So many people do not do that, they do not talk. They will say something and then that is it. And people wonder why I say that I feel left out a lot. I love just talking to people about anything and everything. And jasi talks to me about anything and everything. She told me today that I would probably get annoyed with her if we were in person and I said I would not be annoyed at all bt thankful.
Today has been a rough day….everything and everyone just seemed to want to just everything today. I spent most of the day jumping from conversation to conversation….most of which ended up me getting yelled at. My family is driving me crazy. My brother is about to get his ass kicked my me if he keeps up his lil jack ass act.
Tomorrow I may hang out with McGuire. I am going to finish my project…I have to make some changes to them.
Monday morning is going to be a fun morning. I am not looking forward to the afternoon, but am ready for that night. I got told by my aunt today that my room is a mess..o yay…maybe I will see if my brother will go stay at my sisters so I can sleep in his room. It would be nice. Infact I am going to text him about it in a bit.
Right now I wish I had some ice cream or m and ms. I am not much of a sweets person but I do enjoy those.
There is so much going through my head right now….or was now it just seems blank.
I think after dinner I am going to go to bed. Cady slept next to me last night, kept trying to push me off the bed. I think finally she got tired of me fighting her for the bed and moved to the floor….now she is trying to over take the loveseat….she is too funny!
I do not get god at all.…. I think god hates me.
I am really frustrated right now and there is a lot I should say, but I cannot.
My dad is coming to get me on Monday, yay! I get to go home to an empty house, to a mess, to having to do everything on my own.
People think I am depressed, that I am never happy, but really I am happy most the time, I have a lot of trouble understanding things, and those are the things I blog about. There is a difference between trying to understand something and being depressed or sad. Yeah there are times I am sad but I spend a lot of time just trying to understand what is going on around me.
I watched hotel Rwanda, great movie….but people are fools. War is dumb. Mankind is killing itself and for what, to prove that one man is better than another? I wonder when we will get it through our heads that no one man is worth more than another, that we are all equal. I think we need to spend less time fighting and trying to prove who is better and more time helping one another out, trying to improve the world we live in. we are fools and that will not change until this race decides to grow up.
I think I need to take a nap. Me and peter. And cady. Or just watch the storm thro my window. I need to disappear into something other than my own head.
I read something the other day that basically said tell the ones you love that you love them often, because you cannot tell them enough and you may never get the chance to tell them again. Telling someone you love them is one of the best things anyone can receive.
I believe in this. So I tell people all the time. It just sucks that more times than not it is not said back.
I did not get that nap in. I did get to talk to jasi for a good while today. She is pretty awesome. She is someone I can talk to and she understands. And she just talks to me. So many people do not do that, they do not talk. They will say something and then that is it. And people wonder why I say that I feel left out a lot. I love just talking to people about anything and everything. And jasi talks to me about anything and everything. She told me today that I would probably get annoyed with her if we were in person and I said I would not be annoyed at all bt thankful.
Today has been a rough day….everything and everyone just seemed to want to just everything today. I spent most of the day jumping from conversation to conversation….most of which ended up me getting yelled at. My family is driving me crazy. My brother is about to get his ass kicked my me if he keeps up his lil jack ass act.
Tomorrow I may hang out with McGuire. I am going to finish my project…I have to make some changes to them.
Monday morning is going to be a fun morning. I am not looking forward to the afternoon, but am ready for that night. I got told by my aunt today that my room is a mess..o yay…maybe I will see if my brother will go stay at my sisters so I can sleep in his room. It would be nice. Infact I am going to text him about it in a bit.
Right now I wish I had some ice cream or m and ms. I am not much of a sweets person but I do enjoy those.
There is so much going through my head right now….or was now it just seems blank.
I think after dinner I am going to go to bed. Cady slept next to me last night, kept trying to push me off the bed. I think finally she got tired of me fighting her for the bed and moved to the floor….now she is trying to over take the loveseat….she is too funny!
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