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yesterday had be the best day of whole time me has be sick. no joke.

me got to see pictures from ash an stephen wedding. it was so cute! me is hope them is have a great time on them honey moon.
in the pics me got see michael an sarah, valerie an justin, sara, an lauren an kevin. it was nice to see them faces. them is all awesome!

bambam skype wit me gain last night real earl e this am. me got to see her mom too. me think me found nickname for her. casper. caring, amazing, sweet, persistant, encourage ing, and real real cool. hahah. it is all true. we will see what mama canady think tho. me will still call her mama canady but also casper, if it is ok wit her.
it was real good to get to skype wit nikki 2 times an wit her mom too. it was good to skype wit ash for bit too. made me feel lot better, an for once no alone.

me dad sent me message say that him visit me granma an me granma do not believe me is go move to seattle. me know it is more of her no want me to go. makes me feel real bad. me love me granma lots. an me do not want to break her heart. so me feel like jerk.
me aunt say her need money. so me gave her 40, well me had some one do me bidding for me. it was prob a stupid thing me did, but next month me has to pay for tags on me car. car me no even use most time. an me aunt say her lost the car insurance her have on it, so me has to find an pay for car insurance because it is my car. her no care me in hospital. good thing it is due in november an not on a certain day. it is still frustrate.

me made promise to bambam that me was go try sleep. so me put in phantom of opera. me love the song angel of music. me shut movie off before me fell sleep. me is go finish it tonight. me went sleep round 330 am. me sleep til o most 2. me got up for bit an then went back sleep at 4 til o most 7. me eyes hurt. like crazy. me had a bad dream. me was cry in me dream an o most outside me dream too. me was fight the cry. me no member dream but me do member it was real bad an me was cry.

me hear it was a pretty day out....boo.

me is no read for morrow. me just wish we could skip to tuesday. it is not go to be a good day. an one the worst parts is me has got to face it prob on me own. you may think it is stupid, but if you have no lost a parent, then lil advice, never tell someone that you should be over it by now. you never get over it. in a way you do, but real you do not.
plus me has to watch live feed of the interview and then me has meet wit some persons, an them is go be in me room. yeah me like idea of persons in me room but me not like the reason why them is there.
an then me is also go start pt back up.
me has 2 words for all this = total hell. no joke!

me watch once upon a time an it was alright. me is also watch storm chasers an it is episode with joplin tornado.

me is do good at save me pay checks. when me get out me is pose to get more hours. yay! when me get out me is go to eye doctor. then me is go buy me frames off line. no joke!

me health has be pretty good this weekend. me has no had that many bad moments. just a few.

me has put tags in me blog posts so persons can click on a tag an find all the posts of mine that um talk bout that word.

me is tire. so after storm chasers me is go play few games on facebook an then me is go ing to go to sleep.

mac n cheese

this post has no thing to do wit mac n cheese....ok, may be jus a small small bit do. haha

me could no fall sleep at all. so 6am this morn me fin fell sleep. no joke. me wake up at 12pm. me ach all over. me would like stretch out. me is go be like the old guy from UP, where him pop out bed an crack crack crack. yep, that is go be me. lol

yester day post me say some bout if the guys get no time. Michael, this kid is real smart an real funny, rank bambam wit batman an chuck norris. still makes me laugh eve time me think bout it. me can just see bambam wit mask cape an ninja cloths.
it was a clever reply but one that also has nother side of thot. am me so low an weak that me can no protect me self, that me would let others do it for me? it was no on this reply but one me other friends say it bout time you start stand up for you self. double blow!!
me do stand up for me self, cept when me is smart an think it is no worth the effort, or kno that all the other person want is argue. me has alway stand up for me self, on time me has no is when me has no be able to or thot it best no to. me has alway protect me self too. no on me, but me family an me friends. me will eve protect strangers. no joke.
so why do me need some one else to protect me or stand up for me? if me can no do it for me self what that say bout me? it is simple, it mean that me is weak, a coward, an selfish. which make me a loser an a jerk!

today me has be tire, but what else is new. me is do better wit breath an me oxygen in me mask has gone down.

me is go have to use money me get from work to go to eye doctor. me right eye is one that is mess up. me was do some an look out on me right eye an it is all blurry thro me glasses. boooo. but it is way over due. 4 years. yep. but if me can get perscription me can get glasses cheap.

me did no get color today. sadness. just like me did no get me shower today. double sadness. me did get mac n cheese today. it did no taste good at all, but me yum it. an it was ok. it was better than mash tatos.

me make me bucket list. there is lot to do on it. half me no think will get done but hey me can try.

lot of me friends are sick today. me no like it. if me could me would take them sickness way. me would rather be sick than them. what a pickle.

2 more days. no on will it be the weekend but it will also mean, NO MORE INVESTIGATION, for 2 hole days! 2 more days an 2 me fav persons are get married!!!!!!!!! 2 more days an then begins the 2 day count down. need less to say, me week next week is go start off bad, an monday is go be a bad day. me wish me could skip it.

me has be member bits an pieces of me college years. it is very frustrate cuz it is just things that no tell me much or that no connect.

since me has alread say me believe there is a god, just no sure what or where it is, or even who, me is go say some else. me think pray is a good idea. even if you do no believe that there is a god or in the god that hears pray, you should try pray. it is a good way to help you unstress. me do it. me just think bout me day an me friends an that is it, but that is me pray.

me got message from Richard, me new friend in Seattle. him tell me to do me research cuz me is in for a big surprise. me has experience many other cultures, an me has be in KC lots. lol.

me was do some think today bout halloween. me thot it be funny to dress me dog Bubbles up as a bunch of bubbles or a bottle of bubbles an me dad dog Elvis as elvis! it would be funny. an cute. me is kind sad me is no go be there for halloween. it is ok tho.
me is kind upset bout leave bubbles here in MO. Me will prob no see her in person for a year or so, an that is real hard to take in. an know me luck me would go way an that would be last time me see her. her is happy wit elvis an me family. her an elvis are best friends, who am me to break them up? who am me to break bubbles heart an mine by seperate us? me wish me could take her wit me, or that me had a pup that was no best friends wit the others me could take wit me, but wishes are dreams that are no mean to be.

me has had good day, but lot things in it are just very sad an try to break me down.

it is a long hard journey. one full of heart ach an pain. one full of mystery an shame. but the on thing me is out to gain, is freedom from all this rain!