frakes

today has just not been my day. no joke.

it is easy to change you phone number, it is easy to block people on facebook an IM, what is not easy is blocking people from email. i could change my email, but seriously do not want to. no joke.

my family is no good. i love them wit all me heart, but i cannot wait to get away from them. granted i am, but this is only temporary. i have put up wit sooooooo much from them. the chaos, the fighting, the unlimited abuse, the drama, the drugs, the disrespect...an so much more. it is time to get away from them. no joke.

most my friends do not get to meet my family, cept for me granma, for good reason.

let me tell you some bout me family.

me mom - a druggie, alcoholic, slept round, chose men over her kids, then let those men treat us however, married a minister who beat the crap out her an us (me) kids. she kicked me out in the middle of winter an made me sleep in the dog house wit both me dogs. last words her say to me were i hate you. now she is dead.

me aunt - moms twin, the oldest, did the same things, drugs, alcohol, men, but she married a man who is occasional abusive. she was there when me mom was not, an sometimes we call her mom. she is a constant reminder of my mom.

me dad - him is quiet, drinks, runs his mouth, on occassion is physical abusive, but now it is a real rare thing, he has kicked me out so many times. he works alot.

dustin - my twin - he is 4 years younger than me - he is 18, high school drop out, druggie, drinks, is part of a "gang", think he is the next eminem. he does nothing to help anyone. he goes out gets high an then goes home an sleeps all day. he is disrespectful. he steals, lies, cheats, sleeps around, and is pure lazy. none the less him is me fav, an not only cuz him is me twin.if you do not believe us is twins, ask anyone who has see us in person or look at photos of us. no joke.

rachael - 20. always poor me an everyones fault but hers story. drugs, alcohol, boys - under age -, drama like none other. her an dustin both sell drugs. always try to drag us into her problems

alan - 16, gay/bi - cannot make up his mind, in multi relations, does stuff with older people - cough cough - has a bad past. smokes, drugs, drinks, steals. has no job. drama queen. anger problem, yells, shouts, gets abusive, an is very disrespectful.

i love them all. but i seriously cannot take them drama. i have a post that is not published called dear god. in it i say this - is it too much to ask for a peaceful, clean, drama free home, with no drugs, drunkedness, abuse, where everyone is respectful, helps out?!

the only one that makes it really hard to leave is me granma. you are not going to leave, or brittany is not going to leave, or you are the only person i got. i love me granma. her is very old, an sweet.

it urks my buttons that my dad did not let me get away with nothing like what my sibs are get away with. him says things an then changes them an calls me a lier when i confront him about it.

i am def spending thanksgiving wit me family. but am thinking about finding somewhere else to spend christmas.

an it will be a breath of fresh air when i get where i am going an not have to walk into a house where i am judged constantly, bullied, disrespected, an treated like a dog instead of a part of the family.

today i was put down by my family in emails, an ims, an facebook messages, it is a constant thing, but today was just over the edge. an they made me feel like crap. an i got really insecure about me an my friends. for a long while, i had thot that they had all given up on me. it is a daily thot. but that is how my mind is working.

i am a freaking 22 year old that is on the level of a 2 year old in a lot of ways, trying to get thro elementary school, so i can graduate into adult hood with the parts of me that are already there. it is not fair, to me or anyone else, esp my friends. i am sure that them do not want to be go thro this wit me, but me is thankful for the ones that are. my family sure has not be any support.

i am a frakes, a romer, a baf. i am not my family, i am me. that is all.

just to hear you say it...

yesterday me blog me sound very frustrate an like a jerk. me is a jerk. a big one. an me do not care. no joke.

me got to talk wit ash a bit yester night. me think me made her mad tho. me was hope to get to talk to stephen, but me think him is real busy an him need him sleep so him can feel better.

me has few friends that are go thro some hard times an it seems like there is nothing me can do to help. it frustrates me.

me dad found out that it is just him alternator, or him hope that is all it is. me sister has an abscess in her throat. me family is all mad that me is not there. them say me do not care, or me would make an effort, an that me is not a good sister.

this day has be kind of a long day. me was up til 4 am. me just could not sleep. me sleep til 11. me tv broke an them is work on get new one, so me got out of interview feed.... (sarcastic) it is so sad. watched wizards of waverly place for while. then me napped til 1 30ish. at 3 me was told me sister was in hospital. 4 me fever broke. hope it is for good this time.
me feel better wit the fever gone. the pain game real has not changed much. me bad moments have real went down to maybe one or two a day. them say this may be a thing that happen eve once in while. me has not be puke lots. few time a day. physically me is get better, me think, me hope. personally me still feel like a horrible person.

me is frustrate wit the fact that me cannot take care of me friends. me cannot find a single way to make any part of their pain a little lighter. i hate it. just the way me hate that i cannot be there wit me family.

look like me will get out here the week of thanksgiving. if anyone is have ham, me would love some! me is ready for turkey too. me is ready for real food. steak sounds real good.

me is not sure what me is do for me weekend. sleep me know that. but me is not sure. real have no plans. so anyone want to do something?....

me is go to hate say this but it is how me feel. me feel that me should stay off facebook an me phone for while an just let me friends be. me feel things wold be lot better for them. nothing bout  me is help anyone. i just feel that if anything me is make things worse for persons.

me cannot access me  netflix or youtube or pandora. sadness. some reason it is not work for now. so me is stuck wit the tv them did replace. me is glad for that. or me would real be bore out me mind.

one of the nurses is bring me a strawberry milkshake. it is go be yum. me is glad. but it is secrete so no tell, lol.

life is not always easy, an when you are sick it is really not easy. if it had not be for my friends, i would have not make it this far, or prob even be here. them are what gives me hope. them are the reason why me is press on in my adventure.

4 days

me is go do this tho me do not want too. i is in a not care ing boat. think more of it is me is tired, an mad, an a bit hurt.


monday me wake up an i was real sick. me mean, me fever was 107.2, an me will save you from rest. me go into coma later that day. i woke up yesterday morning just to find out that while me was out them had done another surgery. the coma had save my life an the surgery had help. it was small one.
me spent most day sleep ing yesterday. i is still tired so me has be nap lots. me has be stay off me laptop for most part.

me is real frustrate by my family. or more by what is go on wit them. persons will tell me not to worry, but them is me family.
there is on one car between me aunt, me dad, an i. an it would be me car. me dad's engine is have a serious problem. me car is die soon after started an the shock mount is come loose. so me car is go be on car between 3 persons for the whole winter. this sucks. means me can no go out town on me own, an once me get home me will be run round for everyone do every thing.
me sister is causing all sorts trouble for me whole family. an me brothers are not help. i keep tell me sibs that them has to stop this bs drama of thems. our dad is o most 60 an he can not take the stress that them cause. them do not care. them are assholes. i can say that because me know it to be true. just say.

me is hope me get more hours. which mean me will no be able to go out town much but me need the money to save up.

me is think me is set me self up for failure. hope too BIG. may be me granma is right. washington is probably another empty dream. me no want it to be but it seems like it. me has so many fears bout go there an about not. i can not help it.
i feel like that once me get out here that me will just end up back in here.
me wonder lot, what is me life on earth pose to be. so me has start that story and it is base round death.

me pray lot. to who ever god may be. an me tell this god that me is frustrate wit this whole mess of a life.

death is but the final destination of every single soul that enters this life. from the minute we are born we work toward death. think bout it.

skype

yesterday had be the best day of whole time me has be sick. no joke.

me got to see pictures from ash an stephen wedding. it was so cute! me is hope them is have a great time on them honey moon.
in the pics me got see michael an sarah, valerie an justin, sara, an lauren an kevin. it was nice to see them faces. them is all awesome!

bambam skype wit me gain last night real earl e this am. me got to see her mom too. me think me found nickname for her. casper. caring, amazing, sweet, persistant, encourage ing, and real real cool. hahah. it is all true. we will see what mama canady think tho. me will still call her mama canady but also casper, if it is ok wit her.
it was real good to get to skype wit nikki 2 times an wit her mom too. it was good to skype wit ash for bit too. made me feel lot better, an for once no alone.

me dad sent me message say that him visit me granma an me granma do not believe me is go move to seattle. me know it is more of her no want me to go. makes me feel real bad. me love me granma lots. an me do not want to break her heart. so me feel like jerk.
me aunt say her need money. so me gave her 40, well me had some one do me bidding for me. it was prob a stupid thing me did, but next month me has to pay for tags on me car. car me no even use most time. an me aunt say her lost the car insurance her have on it, so me has to find an pay for car insurance because it is my car. her no care me in hospital. good thing it is due in november an not on a certain day. it is still frustrate.

me made promise to bambam that me was go try sleep. so me put in phantom of opera. me love the song angel of music. me shut movie off before me fell sleep. me is go finish it tonight. me went sleep round 330 am. me sleep til o most 2. me got up for bit an then went back sleep at 4 til o most 7. me eyes hurt. like crazy. me had a bad dream. me was cry in me dream an o most outside me dream too. me was fight the cry. me no member dream but me do member it was real bad an me was cry.

me hear it was a pretty day out....boo.

me is no read for morrow. me just wish we could skip to tuesday. it is not go to be a good day. an one the worst parts is me has got to face it prob on me own. you may think it is stupid, but if you have no lost a parent, then lil advice, never tell someone that you should be over it by now. you never get over it. in a way you do, but real you do not.
plus me has to watch live feed of the interview and then me has meet wit some persons, an them is go be in me room. yeah me like idea of persons in me room but me not like the reason why them is there.
an then me is also go start pt back up.
me has 2 words for all this = total hell. no joke!

me watch once upon a time an it was alright. me is also watch storm chasers an it is episode with joplin tornado.

me is do good at save me pay checks. when me get out me is pose to get more hours. yay! when me get out me is go to eye doctor. then me is go buy me frames off line. no joke!

me health has be pretty good this weekend. me has no had that many bad moments. just a few.

me has put tags in me blog posts so persons can click on a tag an find all the posts of mine that um talk bout that word.

me is tire. so after storm chasers me is go play few games on facebook an then me is go ing to go to sleep.

WED day

yester nite me temp went back up to 105.9. right now it is 106.2. me could no sleep so me watch movies all nite til 6, n then me fell sleep. me sleep til 830.

me talk wit bambam yester nite. me love her. her is one me heros. her is so strong even when her think her no. me is learn so much from her. her is a mazing person, friend, an sister. her say her is go skype wit me sometime day. :D that make me happy!

me felt kind bad that me fell sleep. me is one who say me is alway there, an it no matter the time that you can alway text me or call me, well cept now you can no, an me will be there when you need me. well ash text me just after me fell sleep. me felt bad cuz this was one those times me was no there.

today is ash an stephen wed. pose to skype it for me. even if them do no, me is happy for them. them has be wait long time for this. even tho it short time, it has be long in them minds. me is sad that me will no get talk wit either one them for o most a whole week but it is ok. them is go have fun on them honeymoon. me know where them is go, but them no know that me know. lol.
shortie ask me if me had gift for them an me say me sort do. me is no good at shop for wed or birthday or anything. haha. me use has some one wit me who is good at this stuff, or me has someone do it for me. lol. me is go make them some tho. when me can do stuff wit out it look like a baby done it.

bambam say that me should no do anything when me go home, or no at first. me gree but it will no happen. me just know me will have to wash stuff so me can have clean bedding, have to pick stuff up off floor so me can walk thro me room, prob check animals to make sure all 14 of them are fine an have food water an fresh bedding/litter. then me is prob go have to do all dishes in sight. try ing to get 2 teenage boys to do anything to help out round the house is hard. or impossible when it comes to me brothers. then if me dad forget to get stuff, an him will, me will be go to the store to get what him forgot. then there is the cook, an then the clean up. an then the next day come one of the things that me look forward to eve year. we get the christmas tree! last 2 years us have use me car, but me is no sure if it is go happen this year or no. any way, we go as fam usu, an us find tree an it use be me dad cut it down but now me twin cut it down, while me pull to help make it go faster, an then me an one me bros carry it to be pick up. stardust has no ever see a real christmas tree, this will be awesome, me just hope him no try to climb it. lol. then usu some time in next week we decorate it.

when it come to drive round tho. me think me is go have let me brother, dustin, who can drive but is no legal, drive me round. me was one who taught him to drive, so me hope him no try kill me. lol.

an then me has o most nuff pillows at home that me can make me self comfy in me futon. me wish matress was no so thin but it is ok.


shortie an me make this evil guy so we could destroy him. it sound fun at first an then me start think me no want to think bout kill someone right now, even if them is no real. so when her ask me waht me was go do to him me say me is go hug him. our hugs broke the evil curse on Tina n now him is good!

me watch ghost whisperer at 1am it was the christmas episode. me has on seen that show 2ice. before that me watch fraiser. it was funny stuff.

me think tonite me is go watch phantom of the opera if no other plans come up. piglet an jasi say them both may try skype wit me, so me may have plans, or maybe one me friends will be like hey, want watch movie, an if me is alive an awake, me will belike umYEAH!lol.

me is no go lie tho, me eyes are tire. an me is so weak. it is work just to breath. lol. but me has smile on me face. sorts, it is no a baf smile but it is no  frown or a me is die face.

me can no wait til me is out of here, then me can act skype. me has be tempt tho to go head an unmute me mics or even just show me web cam. bt me no want lose me laptop. no no.

me is no sure me is go get that wheel chair. me no think me is, them were pose to give address for one me persons to go pick it up at but that has no happen. so me guess if there is day me feel me can no do some or me friends an me go some where an me is no able to walk me will just have sit an let them wonder round. me no mind. me is happy when me friends are happy.

me is bruise lot easy. me no ever bruise but me is no an it is no hard to give me one. the guard drop the movie on me arm an now there is big bruise. ya...from movie that weigh like no even 1/2 lb.

ash could no get skype to work. it was sad. me no get see wedding, bt it is ok. them is marry now an me is very very happy for them!!! me love ash an stephen so much!!!!

bambam an me watch movie. haha. her is very good but also very bad at pick movies. lol. the movies her pick are very good, but them is ones that make me heart sink to me stomach an tears rise in me eyes. us watch lifted...an if you have no see it, beware, me had stop it. me was sob thro most the last half.
in so many part of that movie, me would think, me has be there, me has be there...no joke. me mom alway pick guys that had no respect for anyone but them. an her would alway bring us kid round them. her would be so high that any one of her guy friends could have kill us an her would no have cared or even realize it. her guy friends would be jerks. wit some them we even look at them in any way an them would beat the crap out us. me would never let them touch me sibs. me alway step in an protect them, took their beat. mom would sit there an watch it or even help. me can no tell you how many times me dump alcohol, or flush drugs, an turn round an take care of me mom. one time us went see me "grandpa" - mom dad - an him beat the crud out me for refuse do some for him. us would go home tell me dad what happen an him would turn round do the same thing say me was lie.
me mom did start go to meetings tho. me hated go to them wit her. me know them helped her but me hated go to them. an then me aunt start go to, an me still hated go. me still will no go if ask.
lot time music would be the on escape me had. me would go in me room, block the door, an blast me music. there are time me still do that, if me is real mad or real sad. me would use music to drown out all the noise, the fights, the yell, the pound, the threats. an still do.
the movie was sort a tribute to those who have serve in military an them families, especial those who have die in service. it is a remind that them have give them life but them is no gone.
made me real sad. me miss Chris Link, lots. an me granpa was air force, an me miss him lots too.

after the movie, bambam an me skype! it was good ok great to see her face an here her voice. an her was the bambam me member. her is very silly. lol. but her is very precious to me!

me was go take nap for bit an then them come in an ask if me want shower/bath. me was like, yea! haha. me is clean. me is just real hot an start smell funny gain. lol. after shower me went to have scans. them say there is small area of puss but them think them can kill it wit some meds.

now me is back in me room. bambam is go skype wit me gain! woot! an mama canady may join in! hurray!

me no think me is go watch phantom of opera tonight.

me has a new name for me seisures, them are me bad moments. me is no sure why me is sick or why me body will no heal, it is very sad.

it is just another mystery to be solved in this part of me adventure.

hot in here

it is 74 in this room, but me body temp is now sad le, 106.4. boo. it was a few grees worse earl e er. them say them got all infection out me head, but some time me wonder. them thot me was go die. them is still no sure if me will be fine. me has be have real bad seisurses. 2-3 an hour an them last for few mins. me has puke so much that it is now just dry heves. puke lot of blood. pain is so bad that any lil thing causes killer pain. blink, breath, type (but me will deal as long as me is get chat wit me friends), swallow, etc. me oxygen mask is bac to 100% wit out it me oxygen is 10%. boo. me is see stuff. animals, monsters, rainbows - me love me rainbows them is so pretty - , fairies, persons, even things that no have life, like a spoon, an well you get point. me hope.

me spell today have been horrible. me has had to real focus hard an work. me has had to delete an fix so many errors. that is why this blog has take so long to spell. if me did no fix it me no think you be able read it. no joke.

me has had real bad day, cuz of be real real sick. but...it has be good nite.

ash skype me for bit. it was good to see her face an hear her voice. an me is pose to skype wit her gain bout 35 mins ago. lol. 1 day an then them is get marry. me is so happy for them. it hurt to smile but me has big smile on me face. that is how happy me is for them, plus me has tears in me eyes when me think bout them. them are sooooo special. me like no love chat wit them both. them make me smile, BIG SMILE, me love them. an me can no wait til me get to visit them an them get to visit me!!! #stok3d

piglet, kara, jenn, bambam, mama canady, shortie, them all say them want visit me, make me smile. what make me frown is them will prob no get to til me is out the hospital. boo!!! me say boo! lol. but me is cited for day when visits get to start whether be in hospital or no.

nite for last, me had dream bout shortie, an then me had dream bout bambam, then me had dream bout a pup. them was weird dreams, shortie was mean, bambam was a demon zombie, an the pup dream some one had broke in me house an me follow them an them was mobsters an it was weird. me no sleep yester nite at all. boo.

them is say me should get out week of thanksgiving if me do no die or have any serious probs. me get go home clean me room - me dad say you can no see me floor an it is me room so me has clean it up -, then me get to do eve thing for thanksgiving - cook, dishes, clean, - an day after us have fam tradition where we go get tree day after thanksgiving. that is alway fun. then me dad may have work black friday, so me is go pray for him an for all others, serious.

me is glad morrow is the last day me has to watch investigation stuff. no joke. me watch it all day cuz me did no want move an no all that puke was from sickness..lol. just say.

me is no sure what me is go do wit me whole weekend but that in it self is go be adventure!

perfection is on imperfection at it best

ever day us change us is no who us were 2 year go, 2 month go, 2 day go, 2 hour go, 2 min go, or even 2 secs go. us are um constantly grow. me is no who me use be, me is no who me go be.

bambam has say to me, me is perfect, but me think perfect is on imperfect at it best. u can no have perfect less u have imperfect. me member some stuff some one say me. god kno this very idea. him is perfect an to keep him perfection him create us. us is his imperfection. just a thought.

me is no perfect, me is no eve good. me right now is mean jerk. me is hurt, yes physical but also personal.

me love me friends wit all me has. me alway will. even if me can no stand to see you face or name or be round u, once u in me heart u is there for life.
me has had trouble member me friends late le. me try me best tho to member them. me put stick note on all over wit names an all sort stuff so if me forget me have help member.

me has pneucoccos meninjitis or some like that. them just now figure that out after 5 weeks be here. there other stuff to but them got that in first to weeks me here, or so them say. them is say bout put feed tube back in. um no. me i s so yum but when me eat me feel like me go puke, or me do. me temp is 104.8 an me heart beat real fast. them had stick to ivs in one arm. them hurt. me is real real hot. me keep have bad shakes, them call seisure. me head hurt lot, worse than ever. me is tire all time, me nap all time, use on for 20-30 mins, an me still have trouble wake up even tho me body want me to. me is puke all time. me on has one lite on in me room cuz it hurt to have brite lites on. me can move me neck all time cuz it hurt lot.me was go say some but me forgot. me can no reach chuggers or me books or me cards an them no hand them to me.
them say puss is grow from crown of me head to back me head. them say them want take it out in surgery bt want wait see if drugs kill lot of it.
right now me would no care if this kill me.

me is so tire of hear, when u are better, then... if me is no better an still sick then no one want anything do wit me, but once me better then them do stuff wit me. me be sick an just die on floor in me room in me dad home, that how me feel. me kno me is sick but me is how feel. me is tire be treat like me is some disease people that if u come any where near me u will die. it no true, me would give any thing for someone be here wit me.

HEAR ME, me want u company. if u no kno what say then just say me bout you day or ask me stuff. me real do feel all lone. me no want bother any one, me feel like me burden alread. but please no just ignore me cuz u no get or no kno what say. u say no thing make me feel like me is no thing. worthless. no worth it. may be me is just no worth it. which is fine wit me, cuz that how it be me whole life.

me dad sent me mail. in mail was letter from me mom to her boy friend at time. it real hurt me wit what it say. just mind me of how much me mom hated me. an now me have no mom. me kno that if there be anyone who read this pathetic blog that u no kno what it like to live wit a mom who hate you. me mean lit. one day her came into me room cry. me ask her why. her was upset me had cut me out eve pic her had. me felt bad bout it but me say to her, me did it cuz u no love me, u no want me. her say that that was a selfish thing to do.

me is a selfish, worthless, stupid, jerk.

surprise

the pain that me feel got lot worse. me temp went up an me feel like someone was tear me part from inside.

me spend nite watch sun go down. it was real pretty. me real real like it. me like watch leaves turn color. me like make them go crunch. them talk bout cold move in by november. which mean more pain for me but me can bare it. me loves first snow fall. me loves to watch snow fall.  it get nice an peace outside an quiet. Christmas music start too. me fav song is lil drummer boy.
me watch wizards of waverly place and dragonball z and cops. me also watch some more big bad bettleborgs.

yester was a real good day. me think me do real real good. me has be try keep me head think good stuff all time. me want get better. me future just keep look better. me keep get better. me is have hard time get use to cane tho. it no long stick like that monitor thing or thing that hold iv bag. me is work on balance stuff.

me do lot think bout future. me is very happy to move way from home. it just be weird cuz me is no use to no thing but this type life. me has sleep in street, parks, um bandon cars an build, bus stops, bathrooms in winter, even trash can dumpster cuz me want to get way from home or me got kick out me home. me home an life alway fill wit fight yell mean stuff an word. me family is so mess up. me dad is dopted from germany. me no know me blood fam outside me dad sibs mom an her sis. me love me dad's dopted family. me real love me granma.
me grow up in home where all time us move. windows nail shut. all doors either gone or lock all time. bathroom door was lock all time an so was kitchen door. us were no lowed in kitchen ever an us had ask to use bathroom. front an back door had pad locks both on inside an out. us had no way use phone an dad had broke tv to where us could no change channel or volume or turn on or off.
us would go to school an us wold look like us were live in the ally. us were alway make fun of. them call me werewolf in elementry an middle school. it name that stuck too.
but that is me past. me future is look good. me no think me is go get to be what me dream of be but there is no thing stop me from try an if me on end up be some close to me dream then that good nuff for me. me is happy for me future. me get see ocean an mountains an seals. haha. no that no all. me is go get job an work hard at it. me is also go help out lots. me love help out.
it just go be weird live in house where there no yell no fight. it just go be weird to be in place that is peace.
one day me hope go africa. me would love go there an help them build home and to plant crops.
me think me future is go be great!
there are few things me no like bout it. me no like leave me granma but me think some me other family need step up an be there for her. me no like leave bubbles behind. me ask me dad if him think bubbles be fine wit me gone an him say yes. this is her home. her loves me dad, her an elvis best friends. stardust will miss me cuz me is him mom but him an the dogs are best friends an him real like me brother alan, which us all think is weird cuz no animal ever that us has had has no like him. gumby be just fine her like it here. her like me dad lots. me no like no be here for holidays. in 2003 me granpa got real sick round christmas time an us were in foster care an could no go see him. us got out first week of jan an went go see him. that was me last time see him live. him die a week later. so me is no big into no spend holiday no around me family. me know no why, holidays or birthdays or any day real is a good day. it just go be hard to spend holiday wit out me family. but me has to get use to this. me is read for new things.
any way. me no mean bore you wit all that. it just what be on me mind.

me get surprise day an me get go OUTSIDE! me is so happy see what it be. me is play memory wit therapist an me is get lot better at this game. me get new match ever day. them no make me do no thing but memory game. o an them want me work on spell word gain. them think me surprise will make me speak. me no know tho. them think me in way is choose no to speak an them know it most me can no physical speak. them think to that me surprise will help me walk bit better an real help me get better. me just no know what it be.

me is get better at make to window or take steps. me is get there bit faster. me still has get use to cane. it real weird try walk wit it. me no has strong leg them both same. one me hard thing do is get up out chair. soon me no have much trouble walk it just be balance. but me is go get that too.

me has no plan for weekend. me think me just pretty much spend lone. all me friends busy. so me watch movies an shows lone. me ask them bring me book from me home. me has sign book. so me can work on learn that.

me got go outside. me got me surprise. BUBBLES an STARDUST. it was real real real good to see them. me start cry. me was REAL REAL happy. me saw bubbles come toward me an me shouted her name, her start run her o most knock me over. it was the first word me has said. them were very happy me say word. me see stardust too. him was real glad see me an bubbles act like me had be gone forever. her was very VERY happy see me. her was jump all over. stardust got in me lap an start purr purr purr purr an him was sleep. bubbles got in me chair on wheels too. her an stardust stay on me lap an take nap. me want take nap too so me lay me head on bubbles. us play fetch an stardust watch from me lap. then us went for walk. me no could walk far so me sat in chair on wheels and them sort push me. bubbles pull me most time. when it was time for them go bubbles came an sat on me lap an no move. them try to grab her harness an her growl. her no want leave me. no no. me had get up an put her in car. her cry a n me cry. but no be long an me get be wit her for few days.

me eat. after me eat them give me me hat. it no look bad on me. me like lots. just got wait til monday for bandages come off. then if them say ok me can wear it. it blue brown an black.

me has be talk to manda, her is now shortie on me IM. me has miss her. her help me know what church, minister, preaches, an spiritual needs is. her is very good at that. her is move to mo an me is go get see her in few week. me is go stay wit piglet an then me is go may be stay wit roscoe an shortie. lol. me hope her like that name. me like nick names. help me keep persons right in me head. me is happy to go to moberly. me is happy me friends are get marry. me is very happy for them.
them are very good persons. them is go be happy together forever.

me read bible story. me no know if me should ask me asks on here, them no alway get answer. but me is go to. me on read one story. here me asks. me read a basket boat -
    - why did new king no like josephs family?
    - why did new king no want family to have baby boys?
    - how did her get basket to stay float wit baby in it?
    - why did the princess want or need some one to take care of baby for her? if her want it be her own then her should take care of baby.


those are me asks. me has figure out what do for nite. may be me watch movie. me no sure what me do. me know you find out morrow what me do, lol.

me is read go out of here. me is tire of same thing eve day. just few more day me hope.

me hope you has good nite. me love