Cartoons

The last few mornings I have been waking up with my stomach killing me. I know part of it is hunger but though I am hungry I feel that if I try to eat anything it will only make things worse.

I went to bed after watching glee. I had decided Cady needed more water since she was almost out. I thought I better do it now because I will go to bed and forget about it . I had the 5 gallon thing in the sink filling up and Jess walks in and sees this and says,  you know you are not lifting that right?! It had crossed my mind but I had figured fill it half way and I might be able to.  Well Cady  got a full thing of water.
I went in my room and went to sleep.  I heard movement outside my door.  I started to jump out of bed. ....I thought I had slept through my alarm.  I was half way up and I grabbed my phone only to find it was 130 in the am. I layed back down and went back to bed.
I had weird dreams again.  One was I was with a guy I knew.. .we were friends living together.. .and we had company.  We were renting the house trailer like place.  I would randomly say stuff like sentences.  The people visiting would glare at me and I would apologize. It was a horrible thing if I tried speaking.  The people were leaving and I was so relieved.. ..and then my friend told them that we were buying the house. They were so happy and I was confused as to why. 
I had adjust dream where the were evil men or creatures chasing me. 

I woke up and went and set in the chair in the kitchen after I looked out and saw the snow. I had slept well.  It was chilly.  I am sure there is a draft in these windows. ...but I will fix that.
I spent the first part of my morning with Ash.  She went outside and came back to hand me stuff.. ..I do not know why but for some reason I thought she was trying to hand me her gloves along with other things.
I spent most my day on the love seat watching dragonball z and in the kitchen trying to get the dishes all cleaned before Ash got home. I was also going to make tea. I failed. I kept running out of hot water.. .and I am slow.
I am slow at almost everything. Eating, dishes, moving, thinking, breathing.. ..I take forever.. .though I usually do take my time.  Which means that often I suck at getting the things I want to get done in the day done .
So today I feel I failed.

I did not have a word of the day today.. .though the only word I have gotten on the day given was yes. Stephen told me to say lame ....which I can. I suck at this whole talking thing.. ..I seem to whisper more than talk. I guess it still scares me when I do say something. Also all the dreams where I start to talk and then get yelled at or glared at is not helping me. I am not confident in this talking thing. I would love to wake up one day and just be able to talk. that would be nice.

I talked with Tiffany strother for a bit. She asked me if I remembered school and I told her I did not. She told me about how her and I used to hang out and I asked her if I was a fun person to hang out with.. ..she told me I was silly and really quiet but we balanced out our friendship because she was loud. I told her well I guess I have not changed much since I am still really quiet. Lol. 

Today has been a good day.my legs have been bugging the crap out of me. There were times I just thought I was not going to be able to walk for the rest of the day. But I dealt with it and walked any ways.

My memory was improving but lately I have been forgetting a lot of stuff. ..it is insane.

I am sure I turned red so many times today from embarrassment when I forgot stuff. ...whether others noticed or not I could feel my face turning red.. ..I do hope that is the right color. It was not only embarrassment but shame,  I felt so bad especially at the dinner table.

I got a load of laundry done.. .so now tomorrow I can take a shower.. ...I need to buy another towel.. ..lol. ....I need a shower....I stink .

I think I an going to let some one else wash that big knife when it needs to be washed.. ..I tried cutting my finger off with it. Thankfully it only gave me a cut like that of a paper cut.
And I must hate walking or my came is sick and tired of me.. .it keeps falling on my feet.. boo

Speaking of my cane. ..lately I have been getting brave. I am walking to and from places that only require a few steps without my can.  I am sure my balance is improving to. It scares me but I am doing it.

And finally the point of the blog post title. ..I was sitting on the love seat watching dragonball z and Jess was talking with Stephen.. .I had got up give Stephen my phone and Jess says,  I am sorry I will try not to be so loud ago you can watch your cartoon.. ....... 0_o. ....!
anime is yes cartoon like but this show is no cartoon.....it is life.. ..it is hope.. ..it is amazing! And even more so I can fully relate to it .

I am weird and I do not care.. ..get used to it!