i watched something today and on it these two kids were playing hide and seek. it is a strange game to me but one that fits my day well.
i woke at 2 again. i fell back to sleep an woke up at six, or i should say i was woken by Cady standing right in front of me with her head on my bed panting in my face. i looked at my clock and it was 6. so i got up thinking cady wanted out, so i walked out of my room and into the kitchen. i did not understand why cady was not in with ash who was sitting at the table. i guess she was trying to tell me that i needed to get up and keep her master company. much company i was. ash got ready and left for work.
i came and watched some more dbz and then after stephen had showered i showered. the water stayed hot for about 3 minutes, but it was comfortable the whole shower.
i ate before i showered. before i do anything other than walk around the house i have to eat. if i do not i get weak and i cannot do anything. i usually eat breakfast. today it just made my day seem much better.
i was going to sit in my room for part of the day and do stuff but after stephen told me he could work his magic with my phone i decided to move to the dinning room for the day. it turned out that if he were to work his magic with my phone that my phone would break.
for about an hour or so things got tense. the whole time i was apathetic. which was what seemed to be the topic of the day.
i sat there and went thro my green tote thing, that is like my memory/treasure chest. i found a lot of stuff. i guess i learned some about who i used to be and with some talking and sharing things i remembered a few nonimportant things. there was this picture of me in middle school and , tho i thought it was stephen, jess said that i looked 7. and tho i still think it was stephen who said it, he told me it was not him that he thought i looked 4. so i showed him a pic of me when i was either 2-4 years of agei found a lot of pics of me in rotc. - i was in rotc for 4 years, i was on staff for 2, i was on a bunch of drill teams for 3, and i took it to avoid taking gym. - i also found a bunch of stuff from my senior year. i found some devos tht were printed off, which in turn led me to the blog i had created for them. i read thro the first one not knowing yet that i had wrote them, and i thought whoever wrote those had brains, and was very deep thinker. then i saw that they were written by baf inator, which is me, and i laughed. that may have been who i was but i am nothing like that now. i found a bunch of cards, a saved newspaper article of me from when i lived in the noyes home. - the noyes home is a home for children.i was there for almost year. i spent my senior year there. i do not remember much but what i have an am telling you is what i do remember. i left the home because something happened in teh home that should not have. - while in teh home i was interviewed and my photo and stuff made front page.
i made myself some eggs and toast for dinner....the eggs did not turn out good. i had asked stephen earlier if i could borrow some movies to watch, so i picked out a few. i wanted action/suspense, and wanted is that type of movie, but i feel weird watching it with others in the same building as me. i just do not know how people will react with it. so i watched crash. i need to rewatch it to try an get it fully. but it was pretty good.
now i am watching dragonball z again.
i keep thinking that i should be worried or stressed about things, but i am not. and it is nice. usu i am. and i mean, i have things to be stressed and worried over. today i have been apathetic about things. and it is kinda nice. i feel like i am free of a load.
tomorrow has no plans. i have been thinking about rearranging my room, and cleaning it up. i realized that i could shut the vent some, tho it was something i knew but ya, and now it is a bit better in here. shortie and mcguire may come hang out with me in the evening for a bit. and then sunday i am leaving at 715 to go to church with shortie. she warned me that it may take a lot out of me, and i said well then i might just have to take a nap in the middle of the whole thing. lol. i am going to be her shadow. i am getting better with being around people i do not know, but i still like to have someone i do know around, even if it is that that person is in the other room. it is security.
but i am tired, as i have been most of the day. i am going to go to sleep and dream of fairies and butterflies, and monsters and bad guys. somethings have been hidden from me like who i used to be, and i have been trying to seek them out. today i got a step closer to winning the game.
i woke at 2 again. i fell back to sleep an woke up at six, or i should say i was woken by Cady standing right in front of me with her head on my bed panting in my face. i looked at my clock and it was 6. so i got up thinking cady wanted out, so i walked out of my room and into the kitchen. i did not understand why cady was not in with ash who was sitting at the table. i guess she was trying to tell me that i needed to get up and keep her master company. much company i was. ash got ready and left for work.
i came and watched some more dbz and then after stephen had showered i showered. the water stayed hot for about 3 minutes, but it was comfortable the whole shower.
i ate before i showered. before i do anything other than walk around the house i have to eat. if i do not i get weak and i cannot do anything. i usually eat breakfast. today it just made my day seem much better.
i was going to sit in my room for part of the day and do stuff but after stephen told me he could work his magic with my phone i decided to move to the dinning room for the day. it turned out that if he were to work his magic with my phone that my phone would break.
for about an hour or so things got tense. the whole time i was apathetic. which was what seemed to be the topic of the day.
i sat there and went thro my green tote thing, that is like my memory/treasure chest. i found a lot of stuff. i guess i learned some about who i used to be and with some talking and sharing things i remembered a few nonimportant things. there was this picture of me in middle school and , tho i thought it was stephen, jess said that i looked 7. and tho i still think it was stephen who said it, he told me it was not him that he thought i looked 4. so i showed him a pic of me when i was either 2-4 years of agei found a lot of pics of me in rotc. - i was in rotc for 4 years, i was on staff for 2, i was on a bunch of drill teams for 3, and i took it to avoid taking gym. - i also found a bunch of stuff from my senior year. i found some devos tht were printed off, which in turn led me to the blog i had created for them. i read thro the first one not knowing yet that i had wrote them, and i thought whoever wrote those had brains, and was very deep thinker. then i saw that they were written by baf inator, which is me, and i laughed. that may have been who i was but i am nothing like that now. i found a bunch of cards, a saved newspaper article of me from when i lived in the noyes home. - the noyes home is a home for children.i was there for almost year. i spent my senior year there. i do not remember much but what i have an am telling you is what i do remember. i left the home because something happened in teh home that should not have. - while in teh home i was interviewed and my photo and stuff made front page.
i made myself some eggs and toast for dinner....the eggs did not turn out good. i had asked stephen earlier if i could borrow some movies to watch, so i picked out a few. i wanted action/suspense, and wanted is that type of movie, but i feel weird watching it with others in the same building as me. i just do not know how people will react with it. so i watched crash. i need to rewatch it to try an get it fully. but it was pretty good.
now i am watching dragonball z again.
i keep thinking that i should be worried or stressed about things, but i am not. and it is nice. usu i am. and i mean, i have things to be stressed and worried over. today i have been apathetic about things. and it is kinda nice. i feel like i am free of a load.
tomorrow has no plans. i have been thinking about rearranging my room, and cleaning it up. i realized that i could shut the vent some, tho it was something i knew but ya, and now it is a bit better in here. shortie and mcguire may come hang out with me in the evening for a bit. and then sunday i am leaving at 715 to go to church with shortie. she warned me that it may take a lot out of me, and i said well then i might just have to take a nap in the middle of the whole thing. lol. i am going to be her shadow. i am getting better with being around people i do not know, but i still like to have someone i do know around, even if it is that that person is in the other room. it is security.
but i am tired, as i have been most of the day. i am going to go to sleep and dream of fairies and butterflies, and monsters and bad guys. somethings have been hidden from me like who i used to be, and i have been trying to seek them out. today i got a step closer to winning the game.
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