yesterday i went to church with shortie. the last few churches i had been too had been boring and i did not understand stuff. so i thought i would give another church a try. so shortie (amanda) and i both brought it up and asked to go together. she picked me up at 720ish, i had not slept hardly at all the night before, and what sleep i did get i was dreaming the whole time and it wore me out.
on the way to church the sky was amazing. it was um purple and pink. just wonderful! we got to church and shortie parked right over the ice. so when i got out i got out on ice. we walked a long way to the church, which is in a school, how cool is that?! shortie introduced me to kelly and others that were there. then we started setting up. we walked a lot and i stood a lot. when i had got up and around before she picked me up, my legs were killing me. they seemed fine while we were setting up. shortie and i walked back into the gym and we saw mcguire so i went up and surprised her. i think she expected it to be shortie, but it was me instead. lol. she was happy. things were getting set up and people were arriving. the pastor Mark walked in, and i knew him. he is a real nice guy. he knew who i was and greeted me. it was nice.
usually around large groups and esp churches or places i am scared but that was not the case here. i felt awesome.
we got set up and shortie gave me an apron and church was starting. we were back with the kids which was good. i stood most of the time...at first i was trying to go up and down with everyone else but could not keep it up. there was a lot of music nd dancing, no i did not dance or sing. i thought it was awesome when the music went down and you heard all the children singing, it was amazing. we split into groups. shortie told me to stick with her so i did. we got our group and sat down. one of the kids asked, who is he?, referring to me...and shortie was like this is my friend brittany, she cannot talk. all the kids then went to a phase of this is awesome, we must know more. so they started asking questions, and trying to sign. they spoke to me like they would each other, and one girl was like, i know some sign, i know how to sign cow, but i forgot how to do it. they were really interested.
we played a game and we had to build houses out of cards. well they got stumped and shortie was not around so i went an helped and it worked and then one of them messed it up. in the end shortie destroyed our house....what a jerk...lol. jk...it was her job. bt i think she enjoyed it a lil too much. they then played telephone game, but they had no phones.
we went back to singing and things. and then church was over. we picked up. there was this lady there named diona or something like that and she kept stepping in for me and speaking for me. she was awesome for doing that. i felt bad at first when i had to use my phone to talk to her but it turned out to be awesome.
i had a really fun time, and i am going back next sunday and the sunday after. i learned that there are 66 books of the bible 39 old 27 new. and that the bible makes me a mirror so that others may see jesus in me. i also learned the names of some of the books of the bible.
sara took me to meet kurt, so i could go to youth group. he was nice.
shortie and i left. the plan was to eat and then go to our own houses. we went to mcdonalds. - i was not sure about eating. i had been over run with nerves and my stomach was in knots. - i got a mcdouble and a water. we sat down to eat and shortie prayed over our food. a bunch of high schoolers came up to us an thanked us for praying in public. it was kinda awesome! i could not finish my food. we left and then shortie decided that she could put up with me for a bit longer so we went to her house. i picked covert affairs to watch, great show, and shortie slept thro most of it. i almost fell a sleep but apollo would not have it.
mcguire came an got me and we headed to church. we were sitting there in the parking lot waiting for someone to show up to let us in and there was this lady coming down the side walk jogging with her great dane. pure breed. he was huge! cady is big but he was BIG! someone arrived and they set up. brooke came in, and after about 10 mins of being around me, mcguire and i were talking, and brooke asks can she not talk.....we both said no. so mcguire asked me if i wanted her to tell people that when i was being introduced. i said sure. kids started coming in and my table became the popular one for every one. well church started and we had spaghetti...i ate a full plate of food. i then went with sara and the middle schoolers to play skizzim or something like that. it was interesting. we then went in to have our serious time. i sat at the back table with the pastors children.
the whole day bert adams kept coming up to me and asking me if i had been there before and he swore i had, i think he thought i was messing with him....but i was not. i kept shrugging i do not know. finally mcguire went and told him that i had had surgeries. he came over and sat right next to me. he told me how he had had a tumor and i felt his scar. we talked for a bit and it was good just to talk. and he took a piece of paper and wrote i am glad you are here. i said me too.
it was funny how that had happened, as soon as he got up kurt started talking about scars. one thing he said is never let people make you feel or think you are worthless. i swear if i was a cartoon my jaw would hve dropped like it does on cartoons. what he had just said, the story about the lame man, i could relate. he said never let anyone make you feel or think you are worthless because of your wound, or something like that. - ever since the whole st jo thing, i had been feeling that way and because of the way things were going on around me, and the way people had been acting towards me all up to this point made me feel and think i was worthless because of my wounds, my scars. - talk time came. i sat there and made mustaches and unibrows and beards and funny noses with the lil girls. they started talking to me. one of them asked me for my pen, and i took it and pretended i had ate it. they thought i really had ate it. it was great. the oldest one is like i am going to find it and when i do...i am going to find it. talk time ended and church was over. laura came over and sat down and the oldest is like, i am going to dress you like a man!. it was hillarious. brook came up and asked me if i was going to come back and i said yes. everyone cleaned up and we left.
we dropped chelsae off and went to shorties. who had invited us over. val answered the door all confused as why i was there. i went and knocked on shorties door and went in. we decided to go somewhere. we went to mcdonalds. my phone had died right before youth group had started. so we were sitting there being goofy, or they were, i was hiding! it was a fun night.
that day was good. church had seemed to have been the only time that i was not over run with nerves. i really had a great time there. nice people. i could understand the stuff they were teaching. i felt like i belonged.
i asked mcguire about baptism, she went on like it was an auction. really fast. so i got it some, but decided i would ask someone else. i asked stephen. at first i thought, he is ignoring me, but i did not blame him. and then he did a good job at explaining it. and i mostly got it. and then he asked me if i was thinking about being baptized. i said i was not sure, maybe.
thing is that when baptism came up, it rang a bell in my head that said, this means something to you. so i think before everything happened i was thinking about it.
at church i felt like i belonged there. and the whole time it felt like something was tugging at me. most of the time when i hear talk of church, bible, prayer, god, or are listening to christian music, i feel like all weird inside. warm is one way to say it. so i am told that all this was a part of who i was and is still a part of who i am, even if i do not see it. i am interested in learning about all this stuff. it makes me happy and smile.
that day, the day of church, was a very adventurous day and i was glad i got to be a part of it!
on the way to church the sky was amazing. it was um purple and pink. just wonderful! we got to church and shortie parked right over the ice. so when i got out i got out on ice. we walked a long way to the church, which is in a school, how cool is that?! shortie introduced me to kelly and others that were there. then we started setting up. we walked a lot and i stood a lot. when i had got up and around before she picked me up, my legs were killing me. they seemed fine while we were setting up. shortie and i walked back into the gym and we saw mcguire so i went up and surprised her. i think she expected it to be shortie, but it was me instead. lol. she was happy. things were getting set up and people were arriving. the pastor Mark walked in, and i knew him. he is a real nice guy. he knew who i was and greeted me. it was nice.
usually around large groups and esp churches or places i am scared but that was not the case here. i felt awesome.
we got set up and shortie gave me an apron and church was starting. we were back with the kids which was good. i stood most of the time...at first i was trying to go up and down with everyone else but could not keep it up. there was a lot of music nd dancing, no i did not dance or sing. i thought it was awesome when the music went down and you heard all the children singing, it was amazing. we split into groups. shortie told me to stick with her so i did. we got our group and sat down. one of the kids asked, who is he?, referring to me...and shortie was like this is my friend brittany, she cannot talk. all the kids then went to a phase of this is awesome, we must know more. so they started asking questions, and trying to sign. they spoke to me like they would each other, and one girl was like, i know some sign, i know how to sign cow, but i forgot how to do it. they were really interested.
we played a game and we had to build houses out of cards. well they got stumped and shortie was not around so i went an helped and it worked and then one of them messed it up. in the end shortie destroyed our house....what a jerk...lol. jk...it was her job. bt i think she enjoyed it a lil too much. they then played telephone game, but they had no phones.
we went back to singing and things. and then church was over. we picked up. there was this lady there named diona or something like that and she kept stepping in for me and speaking for me. she was awesome for doing that. i felt bad at first when i had to use my phone to talk to her but it turned out to be awesome.
i had a really fun time, and i am going back next sunday and the sunday after. i learned that there are 66 books of the bible 39 old 27 new. and that the bible makes me a mirror so that others may see jesus in me. i also learned the names of some of the books of the bible.
sara took me to meet kurt, so i could go to youth group. he was nice.
shortie and i left. the plan was to eat and then go to our own houses. we went to mcdonalds. - i was not sure about eating. i had been over run with nerves and my stomach was in knots. - i got a mcdouble and a water. we sat down to eat and shortie prayed over our food. a bunch of high schoolers came up to us an thanked us for praying in public. it was kinda awesome! i could not finish my food. we left and then shortie decided that she could put up with me for a bit longer so we went to her house. i picked covert affairs to watch, great show, and shortie slept thro most of it. i almost fell a sleep but apollo would not have it.
mcguire came an got me and we headed to church. we were sitting there in the parking lot waiting for someone to show up to let us in and there was this lady coming down the side walk jogging with her great dane. pure breed. he was huge! cady is big but he was BIG! someone arrived and they set up. brooke came in, and after about 10 mins of being around me, mcguire and i were talking, and brooke asks can she not talk.....we both said no. so mcguire asked me if i wanted her to tell people that when i was being introduced. i said sure. kids started coming in and my table became the popular one for every one. well church started and we had spaghetti...i ate a full plate of food. i then went with sara and the middle schoolers to play skizzim or something like that. it was interesting. we then went in to have our serious time. i sat at the back table with the pastors children.
the whole day bert adams kept coming up to me and asking me if i had been there before and he swore i had, i think he thought i was messing with him....but i was not. i kept shrugging i do not know. finally mcguire went and told him that i had had surgeries. he came over and sat right next to me. he told me how he had had a tumor and i felt his scar. we talked for a bit and it was good just to talk. and he took a piece of paper and wrote i am glad you are here. i said me too.
it was funny how that had happened, as soon as he got up kurt started talking about scars. one thing he said is never let people make you feel or think you are worthless. i swear if i was a cartoon my jaw would hve dropped like it does on cartoons. what he had just said, the story about the lame man, i could relate. he said never let anyone make you feel or think you are worthless because of your wound, or something like that. - ever since the whole st jo thing, i had been feeling that way and because of the way things were going on around me, and the way people had been acting towards me all up to this point made me feel and think i was worthless because of my wounds, my scars. - talk time came. i sat there and made mustaches and unibrows and beards and funny noses with the lil girls. they started talking to me. one of them asked me for my pen, and i took it and pretended i had ate it. they thought i really had ate it. it was great. the oldest one is like i am going to find it and when i do...i am going to find it. talk time ended and church was over. laura came over and sat down and the oldest is like, i am going to dress you like a man!. it was hillarious. brook came up and asked me if i was going to come back and i said yes. everyone cleaned up and we left.
we dropped chelsae off and went to shorties. who had invited us over. val answered the door all confused as why i was there. i went and knocked on shorties door and went in. we decided to go somewhere. we went to mcdonalds. my phone had died right before youth group had started. so we were sitting there being goofy, or they were, i was hiding! it was a fun night.
that day was good. church had seemed to have been the only time that i was not over run with nerves. i really had a great time there. nice people. i could understand the stuff they were teaching. i felt like i belonged.
i asked mcguire about baptism, she went on like it was an auction. really fast. so i got it some, but decided i would ask someone else. i asked stephen. at first i thought, he is ignoring me, but i did not blame him. and then he did a good job at explaining it. and i mostly got it. and then he asked me if i was thinking about being baptized. i said i was not sure, maybe.
thing is that when baptism came up, it rang a bell in my head that said, this means something to you. so i think before everything happened i was thinking about it.
at church i felt like i belonged there. and the whole time it felt like something was tugging at me. most of the time when i hear talk of church, bible, prayer, god, or are listening to christian music, i feel like all weird inside. warm is one way to say it. so i am told that all this was a part of who i was and is still a part of who i am, even if i do not see it. i am interested in learning about all this stuff. it makes me happy and smile.
that day, the day of church, was a very adventurous day and i was glad i got to be a part of it!
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