what a day. i tell you i have heard more hilarious things an seen more hilarious things than i have in the last 3 months. no joke, an that would be in the last 24 hours. but even tho the last 24 hours have been wonderful, they have been hard too.
i went to bed after posting my blog, it was about 120am and i woke up an it was 136am. i thought i had slept for hours. i could not believe it was less than 20 mins. i stayed in bed an tried sleeping. 3am came around an i decided to go get a cup of water that it would help. i got out of bed an down i started to go. i caught myself tho. i was glad too, i did not want to wake up ash or stephen. i could not walk worth nothing. my balance was off all early morning. i was scared to even try walking to the kitchen, but i did it anyways. i got back drunk half the glass, an tried to sleep again. i looked at the clock it was 5 something. and still no sleep. i was so upset that it was yet another night with no sleep, that i almost got up an moved to the chair across the room. i stayed. 6am came an ash had got up an i decided hey tv, why not. lol. i moved to the couch. started to wtch once upon a time with ash, she left for work. cady stayed by me for 5 minutes. so i decided to get my pillow an blanket an try an sleep. well i could not sleep. cady decided she was going to run away from me everytime i even stared in her direction. finally she laid in front of the door waiting for stephen to wake up.
i took a shower. oh my goodness, i have not had a warm shower, hot shower like that one in forever. it was nice. no joke. i left my stuff in there. their house is roomy unlike mine so i have to use my cane to help me keep balance. an carrying stuff does not help. lol. i got out of the shower took 15 mnutes to get my jeans on over my shorts an just on period. after that i ate a banana. then stephen woke up. cady was so happy. no joke.
after a while of trying to straighten out piglet an talk her in to what they called brunch, we went to funny pages. ash paul stephen an i sat there an waited no long for our food. i got a waffle, bacon n eggs, an sweet tea. piglet is like if you are still hungry after this then there is something wrong with you, wait, scratch that, it is you. 0 i had given her this look, like hello do you know who i am. lol. we got done an i went and grabed my notebook an stuff. we got to piglets house an there were 3 dogs. one looked like bubbles cept smaller an no white. it drove me crazy all day.
we worked on numbers an letter. i think i am doing better. and piglet is too, at reading sign. we stopped an she played keyboard for a bit, tho it looked like a piano to me. we worked some more. it was hard. i had watched her write it down over an over an over again, an all i had to do was um draw over it, an make it look the same. well in my head things look right but come out wrong. she said my left hand is a loser. an my arms an hands get tired after a few minutes, but i push thro. it is what i do.
we finished an piglet decided to read to me. i love the author. an the story, but i was so tired that finally...with coco an mama laying on me, being covered up an stretched out...i was to the point where i could not keep my eyes opened, an i was trying my best to listen. but most of it went in one ear an out the other. she finally looked at me an said do you need a nap, i was like no i am fine. haha. i needed a nap. lol. but i was afraid if i took one that i would not wake up until tomorrow. supper time came an paul was like i want taco bell, which with the bill that was paid, is where we should have gone, i agreed with him an then we went to pizza hut instead.
i got to tell you, people are not making it that easy for me. i have been off balance all day, but i make due pretty good. i had to walk across the parking lot at funny pages, which really was not that far, then paul parked in the second row at pizza hut so i had to walk across that parking lot. i lost my balance quite a few times at both places. my legs were hurting so much an so tired that i sat down every chance i got. then on top of that people kept asking me stuff, an typing out answers fast is not fast enough. piglet asked me something an everyone at the table was watching, i tryed just using my hands to answer an that did not work. so i gave her this look, an everyone at the table burst out laughing, and i typed it out. it came time to pray over food an they did this thing with their thumbs, an i just looked at them, an they said well she cannot pray...i got news, i can too, you just will not be ale to hear it. lol. there were many moments where my defects become some of the funniest moments of the night. an my cane, is becomeing the weapon of choice for a lot of people.
i got supreme pizza at pizza hut. i ate most of what was on my plate but could not eat it all. we got done there an went to walmart. i was not going to walk in just to sit down so i stayed in the car, with paul. i thanked them for paying for dinner, tho if they asked i would pay them back. i feel kinda bad that people are paying for my meals.
we got back to the house an the owner of jaster was there. it was a fun time. i have never seen a dog do what he did, an i cannot wait to test it out on my dog.
piglet brought me back to the jones house. i had been texting ashh, i had meant to have been over here to hang out with her an lauren, but it did not go that way. i felt really bad. she said i want you to feel as if you can come an go as yo please. i told her all day i had been calling this place home in my head without even realizing. she said that made her really really happy. yay! it is nice an quiet, clean, the shower has amazing hot water. it is very spacious. the bed is comfy an so is the couch. so when jess gets here tomorrow, i have no problem with where i sleep, an i will even sleep on the love seat. i just have to move my stuff. it seemed like a lot of stuff but if i would have folded stuff in that black bag of mine a lot more would have fit. the other bag is a lot of clothes. i packed a lot of extra stuff just in case.
jasi asked me if i had movement probs with my face an i said no usu, she said well you never smile in your pics. an i said tht is cuz right now i cannot stand the way i look. i look sick to me. the sick me is still what i see. i love jasi, she makes my heart smile! she is my sister! an i love her!
i love being here with friends, with ash an stephen - who i owe both hugs still - piglet an paul, etc. it is a bit frustrating when they talk about stuff that i do not remember or people i do not remember, or when we go to a place an people are waiting for me to say something, but it just flusters me for a sec an then i jst think one day it will be better.
i have been stuffed every meal i have had. an stephen, i am sure i would love whatever you mad, just say! now i need to go an try to sleep. my body has been in a weird so tired state. i have been shaking an cold, an in pain, an even had a nose bleed this am, being off balance, an hardly being able to walk, my eyes have been playing tricks on me, stuff has been moving that is not supposed to move. etc. i have not complained an i have dealt. an i will continue too, because in the end, being here with friends, is what drowns everything else out.
i went to bed after posting my blog, it was about 120am and i woke up an it was 136am. i thought i had slept for hours. i could not believe it was less than 20 mins. i stayed in bed an tried sleeping. 3am came around an i decided to go get a cup of water that it would help. i got out of bed an down i started to go. i caught myself tho. i was glad too, i did not want to wake up ash or stephen. i could not walk worth nothing. my balance was off all early morning. i was scared to even try walking to the kitchen, but i did it anyways. i got back drunk half the glass, an tried to sleep again. i looked at the clock it was 5 something. and still no sleep. i was so upset that it was yet another night with no sleep, that i almost got up an moved to the chair across the room. i stayed. 6am came an ash had got up an i decided hey tv, why not. lol. i moved to the couch. started to wtch once upon a time with ash, she left for work. cady stayed by me for 5 minutes. so i decided to get my pillow an blanket an try an sleep. well i could not sleep. cady decided she was going to run away from me everytime i even stared in her direction. finally she laid in front of the door waiting for stephen to wake up.
i took a shower. oh my goodness, i have not had a warm shower, hot shower like that one in forever. it was nice. no joke. i left my stuff in there. their house is roomy unlike mine so i have to use my cane to help me keep balance. an carrying stuff does not help. lol. i got out of the shower took 15 mnutes to get my jeans on over my shorts an just on period. after that i ate a banana. then stephen woke up. cady was so happy. no joke.
after a while of trying to straighten out piglet an talk her in to what they called brunch, we went to funny pages. ash paul stephen an i sat there an waited no long for our food. i got a waffle, bacon n eggs, an sweet tea. piglet is like if you are still hungry after this then there is something wrong with you, wait, scratch that, it is you. 0 i had given her this look, like hello do you know who i am. lol. we got done an i went and grabed my notebook an stuff. we got to piglets house an there were 3 dogs. one looked like bubbles cept smaller an no white. it drove me crazy all day.
we worked on numbers an letter. i think i am doing better. and piglet is too, at reading sign. we stopped an she played keyboard for a bit, tho it looked like a piano to me. we worked some more. it was hard. i had watched her write it down over an over an over again, an all i had to do was um draw over it, an make it look the same. well in my head things look right but come out wrong. she said my left hand is a loser. an my arms an hands get tired after a few minutes, but i push thro. it is what i do.
we finished an piglet decided to read to me. i love the author. an the story, but i was so tired that finally...with coco an mama laying on me, being covered up an stretched out...i was to the point where i could not keep my eyes opened, an i was trying my best to listen. but most of it went in one ear an out the other. she finally looked at me an said do you need a nap, i was like no i am fine. haha. i needed a nap. lol. but i was afraid if i took one that i would not wake up until tomorrow. supper time came an paul was like i want taco bell, which with the bill that was paid, is where we should have gone, i agreed with him an then we went to pizza hut instead.
i got to tell you, people are not making it that easy for me. i have been off balance all day, but i make due pretty good. i had to walk across the parking lot at funny pages, which really was not that far, then paul parked in the second row at pizza hut so i had to walk across that parking lot. i lost my balance quite a few times at both places. my legs were hurting so much an so tired that i sat down every chance i got. then on top of that people kept asking me stuff, an typing out answers fast is not fast enough. piglet asked me something an everyone at the table was watching, i tryed just using my hands to answer an that did not work. so i gave her this look, an everyone at the table burst out laughing, and i typed it out. it came time to pray over food an they did this thing with their thumbs, an i just looked at them, an they said well she cannot pray...i got news, i can too, you just will not be ale to hear it. lol. there were many moments where my defects become some of the funniest moments of the night. an my cane, is becomeing the weapon of choice for a lot of people.
i got supreme pizza at pizza hut. i ate most of what was on my plate but could not eat it all. we got done there an went to walmart. i was not going to walk in just to sit down so i stayed in the car, with paul. i thanked them for paying for dinner, tho if they asked i would pay them back. i feel kinda bad that people are paying for my meals.
we got back to the house an the owner of jaster was there. it was a fun time. i have never seen a dog do what he did, an i cannot wait to test it out on my dog.
piglet brought me back to the jones house. i had been texting ashh, i had meant to have been over here to hang out with her an lauren, but it did not go that way. i felt really bad. she said i want you to feel as if you can come an go as yo please. i told her all day i had been calling this place home in my head without even realizing. she said that made her really really happy. yay! it is nice an quiet, clean, the shower has amazing hot water. it is very spacious. the bed is comfy an so is the couch. so when jess gets here tomorrow, i have no problem with where i sleep, an i will even sleep on the love seat. i just have to move my stuff. it seemed like a lot of stuff but if i would have folded stuff in that black bag of mine a lot more would have fit. the other bag is a lot of clothes. i packed a lot of extra stuff just in case.
jasi asked me if i had movement probs with my face an i said no usu, she said well you never smile in your pics. an i said tht is cuz right now i cannot stand the way i look. i look sick to me. the sick me is still what i see. i love jasi, she makes my heart smile! she is my sister! an i love her!
i love being here with friends, with ash an stephen - who i owe both hugs still - piglet an paul, etc. it is a bit frustrating when they talk about stuff that i do not remember or people i do not remember, or when we go to a place an people are waiting for me to say something, but it just flusters me for a sec an then i jst think one day it will be better.
i have been stuffed every meal i have had. an stephen, i am sure i would love whatever you mad, just say! now i need to go an try to sleep. my body has been in a weird so tired state. i have been shaking an cold, an in pain, an even had a nose bleed this am, being off balance, an hardly being able to walk, my eyes have been playing tricks on me, stuff has been moving that is not supposed to move. etc. i have not complained an i have dealt. an i will continue too, because in the end, being here with friends, is what drowns everything else out.
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