for the last few weeks if not month month in a half, i have been try to put the pieces of my life, mind, an self together. try to figure out who i am, what was once in the gaps in me memory, who are me friends, who people are, etc. an most of all try to find what it is i believe.
most this stuff there is not one person me has said any of this too, well typed, you all know what me means. me did not say it because me already feels dumb an retarded as it is. already feel me friends get frustrate wit the way me is sometime. i know me do, an if me do then others do too. so here it goes.
unless me talk to you on a often basis, me will forget you, or stuff bout you. it took me forever to remember bambam's name an nickname. no joke. an there are days that me will get some thing from her, a text or message or card, an me will not know who her is. there are days that it takes a while when talk to ash that me be like o, me know who you are. me no ever say this tho. it is bad, makes me feel like bad friend.
me computer has this thing where it reads text to me. so chat, messages, other stuff, me highlight it an the computer reads it to me. me is not that good at reading. me has only got better at spelling because of spell check an because me hears it all time.
one me pt things is memory. me has flash cards wit pictures on one side an on the other the name of what is in picture. me usual forget most things by next session. me can say car an not know what a car is, apple, book, tree, pencil, simple thing. me mentality is of a 10 year old, but me knowledge base is that of a 2 year old.
it is irritate. every time me get a card in the mail, who ever is in room at time read it to me. if it was not for the text to talk thing then me would not be able to have chats an messages wit people. me tries me best. an have found that if me just let me fingers do the work an try not to think too hard bout it that most stuff comes out right.
so people think me is doing real good, but me is not where you think me is. i have a long way to go before i am where you think me is at.
so there it is. laugh, joke, think what ever you want, sorry me did not say all this up front.
one thing me has been learning is that there is no reason for me to be embarrassed or ashamed of who me is or where me is. be in the hospital it is not that hard to do. but when me get out, me is nervous bout be round friends. no joke.
here me can lay in bed all day watch kid shows an disney an nick, an not get looked at like me is idiot. me will be at break in pt sit wit jake watch a disney show an will just start laugh an not have worry bout anything.
i guess what me fear is something that me has delt wit me whole life...so it is kind stupid to fear it even more now. i fear the looks, the talk, the get picked on stuff. an maybe me is be dumb bout it, but it is what me fear.
there is a lot that me is go have to relearn. mean me knows how to do so much stuff an do it right in me head but get ing it out of me head is another thing. me has to relearn how to read books outloud, talk, walk, an lot of other stuff. i do not always feed me self. am working on it tho.
me has always been one who people think is a goody to shoes, but is the rebel. no ever following rules, doing what me is not suppose to be doing, an to do what me is supposed to an following all orders given to me is really a odd thing for me. but good thing for me.
me is still sick wit high fever. but me is watch beauty an beast an aladdin wit the jones! me just hope me can stay wake lng enough to watch them all. me got card from bambam...it was great. her cards are always awesome. simple an sweet!
most this stuff there is not one person me has said any of this too, well typed, you all know what me means. me did not say it because me already feels dumb an retarded as it is. already feel me friends get frustrate wit the way me is sometime. i know me do, an if me do then others do too. so here it goes.
unless me talk to you on a often basis, me will forget you, or stuff bout you. it took me forever to remember bambam's name an nickname. no joke. an there are days that me will get some thing from her, a text or message or card, an me will not know who her is. there are days that it takes a while when talk to ash that me be like o, me know who you are. me no ever say this tho. it is bad, makes me feel like bad friend.
me computer has this thing where it reads text to me. so chat, messages, other stuff, me highlight it an the computer reads it to me. me is not that good at reading. me has only got better at spelling because of spell check an because me hears it all time.
one me pt things is memory. me has flash cards wit pictures on one side an on the other the name of what is in picture. me usual forget most things by next session. me can say car an not know what a car is, apple, book, tree, pencil, simple thing. me mentality is of a 10 year old, but me knowledge base is that of a 2 year old.
it is irritate. every time me get a card in the mail, who ever is in room at time read it to me. if it was not for the text to talk thing then me would not be able to have chats an messages wit people. me tries me best. an have found that if me just let me fingers do the work an try not to think too hard bout it that most stuff comes out right.
so people think me is doing real good, but me is not where you think me is. i have a long way to go before i am where you think me is at.
so there it is. laugh, joke, think what ever you want, sorry me did not say all this up front.
one thing me has been learning is that there is no reason for me to be embarrassed or ashamed of who me is or where me is. be in the hospital it is not that hard to do. but when me get out, me is nervous bout be round friends. no joke.
here me can lay in bed all day watch kid shows an disney an nick, an not get looked at like me is idiot. me will be at break in pt sit wit jake watch a disney show an will just start laugh an not have worry bout anything.
i guess what me fear is something that me has delt wit me whole life...so it is kind stupid to fear it even more now. i fear the looks, the talk, the get picked on stuff. an maybe me is be dumb bout it, but it is what me fear.
there is a lot that me is go have to relearn. mean me knows how to do so much stuff an do it right in me head but get ing it out of me head is another thing. me has to relearn how to read books outloud, talk, walk, an lot of other stuff. i do not always feed me self. am working on it tho.
me has always been one who people think is a goody to shoes, but is the rebel. no ever following rules, doing what me is not suppose to be doing, an to do what me is supposed to an following all orders given to me is really a odd thing for me. but good thing for me.
me is still sick wit high fever. but me is watch beauty an beast an aladdin wit the jones! me just hope me can stay wake lng enough to watch them all. me got card from bambam...it was great. her cards are always awesome. simple an sweet!
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