yesterday that dream had really messed me up. all day i was just full of emotions. i got really dramatic about some things, well tht is how it would seem to you. so my post yesterday was full of emotions. n the only way i could get thro those emotions was by writing about them. i had felt like a jerk. because of the way my brain made the canady family in my dream, because i could not go visit people, because of some of the things that i had said in my post, nd because in less thn a year i am going to break the heart of the one i love the most.
yes, i love my dog more than anything. she has been my best friend, a loyal an true friend, always there when i needed a slap in the face by a tail or a hug, yes she gets on her back lets puts her front legs around my neck an puts her head on my back giving me a hug. she is amazing. an if you think it is crazy, well whatever.
piglet an i skyped a lot yesterday. i talked to shortie an i made a comment that she should send me a message or a text or go to piglets an skype with us. well piglet an i went to skype an there was a very tired but amazing shortie. i was happy. skype kept crashing an they were arguing about which one of them should leave, an then piglet said yep she had this problem with bambam on skype an gmail. then i said well just goes to show that i am the awesome one. lol. they were like then you should leave. i was not sure how that was going to work out.
i was having a crummy day. we did not go get the christmas tree. at all. dad said no point since alan is gone an i will not be here most the month. boo. he is going to deprive stardust his first real christmas tree to try an climb. and then bambam sent me a message asking me how i was doing, and i felt really bad talking to her becase of the dream. and then after talking for a bit i just strted to feel much better. and it was not about the dream. the beginning of the convo i started feeling even worse, bt then like i said i started feeling better. i guess sometimes it just helps to talk about anything with someone.
i ended up going to the er. i let the dogs out to potty an elvis came running really really fast into the door an it hit me really really hard in the head. i started getting bloody noses, light headed, i really could not walk straight at all, my vision was not that great, and then i had a seizure. that is what made the decision to go. so i went. texted someone to take me. got there, it was not busy. i got right in. the whole visit was about 45mins. that is a surprise in itself. that almost never happens. turns out that i just had a small cuncussion, and that my head is still relly sensitive. and that my sinusitis started actin up once i got hit with the door, an that is why my nose would not stop bleeding. the doctor said that my head can not take anything harder than a plastic bottle hitting my head, like a cheap bottle of water. so this means snow balls are out! :( ....maybe
tomorrow i got to start packing for when i leave next week. i just am not sure wht to pack.
i was supposed o stay in bed all day tody but i had to get some hours in at work, n i hd promised my granma i would swing by. an i needed a shower. i have been running out of spoons, an not been able to always take a shower for he day, well i need one today an i got it.
holiday park opened an i really want to go thro it. i sent kara a message saying maybe when i go to visit her we could go through it. who knows. i would like too, but it is only good when it is really dark outside. so i do not know if i will get to see it this year.
before i leave i am going to give my aunt my electric guitar for christmas, an i am going to go buy my dad one of those BIG chocolate bars for $10. he will like it.
today has been a day full of sleep, laundry - which i am still working on, cleaning - same, an i visited my granma an helped her. tomorrow i have to go help my aunt. fun times.
i do not have spoons left at all, so i am wondering if i am going to be able to do much next week. sad part is i still have a ton of stuff to do before next week starts. i need a spirit bomb.
yes, i love my dog more than anything. she has been my best friend, a loyal an true friend, always there when i needed a slap in the face by a tail or a hug, yes she gets on her back lets puts her front legs around my neck an puts her head on my back giving me a hug. she is amazing. an if you think it is crazy, well whatever.
piglet an i skyped a lot yesterday. i talked to shortie an i made a comment that she should send me a message or a text or go to piglets an skype with us. well piglet an i went to skype an there was a very tired but amazing shortie. i was happy. skype kept crashing an they were arguing about which one of them should leave, an then piglet said yep she had this problem with bambam on skype an gmail. then i said well just goes to show that i am the awesome one. lol. they were like then you should leave. i was not sure how that was going to work out.
i was having a crummy day. we did not go get the christmas tree. at all. dad said no point since alan is gone an i will not be here most the month. boo. he is going to deprive stardust his first real christmas tree to try an climb. and then bambam sent me a message asking me how i was doing, and i felt really bad talking to her becase of the dream. and then after talking for a bit i just strted to feel much better. and it was not about the dream. the beginning of the convo i started feeling even worse, bt then like i said i started feeling better. i guess sometimes it just helps to talk about anything with someone.
i ended up going to the er. i let the dogs out to potty an elvis came running really really fast into the door an it hit me really really hard in the head. i started getting bloody noses, light headed, i really could not walk straight at all, my vision was not that great, and then i had a seizure. that is what made the decision to go. so i went. texted someone to take me. got there, it was not busy. i got right in. the whole visit was about 45mins. that is a surprise in itself. that almost never happens. turns out that i just had a small cuncussion, and that my head is still relly sensitive. and that my sinusitis started actin up once i got hit with the door, an that is why my nose would not stop bleeding. the doctor said that my head can not take anything harder than a plastic bottle hitting my head, like a cheap bottle of water. so this means snow balls are out! :( ....maybe
tomorrow i got to start packing for when i leave next week. i just am not sure wht to pack.
i was supposed o stay in bed all day tody but i had to get some hours in at work, n i hd promised my granma i would swing by. an i needed a shower. i have been running out of spoons, an not been able to always take a shower for he day, well i need one today an i got it.
holiday park opened an i really want to go thro it. i sent kara a message saying maybe when i go to visit her we could go through it. who knows. i would like too, but it is only good when it is really dark outside. so i do not know if i will get to see it this year.
before i leave i am going to give my aunt my electric guitar for christmas, an i am going to go buy my dad one of those BIG chocolate bars for $10. he will like it.
today has been a day full of sleep, laundry - which i am still working on, cleaning - same, an i visited my granma an helped her. tomorrow i have to go help my aunt. fun times.
i do not have spoons left at all, so i am wondering if i am going to be able to do much next week. sad part is i still have a ton of stuff to do before next week starts. i need a spirit bomb.
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