last night i ended up watching a mix of halloween episodes from Barney, Thomas the Train, an a few other kid shows. Barney has changed from when i was little an so has bj an the other one. ah, well. the episodes were good. i had a dream that i was in president bushes house. we were in the second story, an outside one of the caged windows was a helicopter an a soldier. it was night time an a bad storm was rolling thro. there had been other people but as i looked out the window the car lot was not as full as before. bush told us to wait inside for the storm to pass. as i watched the helicopter being lifted off the ground an the soldier jump thro the window i said i think we should go to the basement. he looked at me an said we will be fine. so i went an sat on the couch. the storm had mostly passed an he had told us to leave. i got two pics with him. the end.
really weird.
i got up an got ready for the day. i went to pt. 3 hrs 50 mins later, i went to my room. there was a 5 min rest time before the meeting. 1pm i was back in the pt room. i spent about 3-4 minutes through the whole 4 hour session talking with becks. :) . now i did not realize what i had done, but i have not told you what i have um achieved? in pt, only how pt has gone. so , let me catch you up.
monday - i took 7steps with the help of therapist support an a cane. i took 1 step on my own. i got to the point where i can stand up on my own.
tuesday - i was able to put jeans on all by myself. i was able to lift a 2lb bag off the table. i could not hold it for long tho. i was able to take 10 steps with the cane, 5 without the help of the therapist, an 3 on my own.
wednesday - i took 14 steps 8 without help of the therapist, an 6 on my own.
those are the big things. it has taken me a lot of um trial an fail. i am also working on holding a pencil or something close to it. lifting an holding things. learning colors, numbers - 123's, asl, an many other things.
i have got a lot of people say how my speech/spelling an grammar is get better. i use spell check, an dictionary.com an that reverselookup thing alot. so ya, i have improved a bit, but it is mainly those things an the fact that my phone makes letters big when need to be an stuff like that.
now the meeting. it was my lawyer, the two fbi agents, and me. it was all stuff i already know. both guys are out, nothing can be done to put them behind bars unless they try something or do something against the bail terms or they are found guilty. also i will not have a guard detail like i do when i leave the hospital. my house will be watched. that is all i can say.
today is Jerusha birthday. her is bambams best friend. she is a really cool person, which means she is off the wall awesome. i have a lot of respect for her. i think her is an awesome mother, friend, an person. happy birthday, does not it feel good to be another year younger? :)
i have be go to bed around 10, which really means 12. it is odd for me. all day i am so dead tired. today i fell alseep during pt. hahaha. it was funny. i think. bambam always says the things worth doing are not always easy, or something like that. getting this stuff down so that when i get out i can continue to improve on it, is not easy at all. there have been times my therapists will say, okay, i think that is enough for today, an i will not stop. we never get the hard stuff done by taking it easy. i have time to take things easy after this week.
did i ever say how awesome my friends are? well , THEY ARE AWESOME!! yes, that means YOU. Ebony had read my post from yesterday an said she was go to talk her house church, what ever that is, an a friend to see if she can help out on stuff. bambam said she would make sure that i had what i needed. piglet said she was talk with her mom in law who is a cna to see how she could help. ash an stephen, kara an nicki, have all stated that they would help me learn things. shortie said she was go make cookies an watch a movie with me. then there is the big stuff. mama canady an rachel, are really wanting to squeeze the stuffing out of me, they both have say they want to hug me, lol. an then josi an cher an jasi all just are awesome. i cannot wait to visit them, and, since i am putting my messed up mind to it, it will happen. no joke.
there have been so many times i thought i was going thro this alone, was a lone, was going to have to do all this alone once i am home, an the whole time i have had an army of supporters, at my side, helping me get through every step of this, even when i did not see it. this month is november an thanksgiving is next week, but this is an early thing. i am thankful, blessed, an honored to have such awesome friends. friends who will stand by me even when i do not want them too or feel like they arenot there. friends who will tell me when i am wrong, when i am doing something wrong, an who will take the time to show me what it is that needs to be corrected. friends who are there to lift me up, encourage me, support me, guide an help me, an love me even when i feel i do not deserve it and/or when they themselves are in a rough patch. i know i do not deserve them, but they feel i do, an i am honored to be called their friend an to call them friend. always and forever
really weird.
i got up an got ready for the day. i went to pt. 3 hrs 50 mins later, i went to my room. there was a 5 min rest time before the meeting. 1pm i was back in the pt room. i spent about 3-4 minutes through the whole 4 hour session talking with becks. :) . now i did not realize what i had done, but i have not told you what i have um achieved? in pt, only how pt has gone. so , let me catch you up.
monday - i took 7steps with the help of therapist support an a cane. i took 1 step on my own. i got to the point where i can stand up on my own.
tuesday - i was able to put jeans on all by myself. i was able to lift a 2lb bag off the table. i could not hold it for long tho. i was able to take 10 steps with the cane, 5 without the help of the therapist, an 3 on my own.
wednesday - i took 14 steps 8 without help of the therapist, an 6 on my own.
those are the big things. it has taken me a lot of um trial an fail. i am also working on holding a pencil or something close to it. lifting an holding things. learning colors, numbers - 123's, asl, an many other things.
i have got a lot of people say how my speech/spelling an grammar is get better. i use spell check, an dictionary.com an that reverselookup thing alot. so ya, i have improved a bit, but it is mainly those things an the fact that my phone makes letters big when need to be an stuff like that.
now the meeting. it was my lawyer, the two fbi agents, and me. it was all stuff i already know. both guys are out, nothing can be done to put them behind bars unless they try something or do something against the bail terms or they are found guilty. also i will not have a guard detail like i do when i leave the hospital. my house will be watched. that is all i can say.
today is Jerusha birthday. her is bambams best friend. she is a really cool person, which means she is off the wall awesome. i have a lot of respect for her. i think her is an awesome mother, friend, an person. happy birthday, does not it feel good to be another year younger? :)
i have be go to bed around 10, which really means 12. it is odd for me. all day i am so dead tired. today i fell alseep during pt. hahaha. it was funny. i think. bambam always says the things worth doing are not always easy, or something like that. getting this stuff down so that when i get out i can continue to improve on it, is not easy at all. there have been times my therapists will say, okay, i think that is enough for today, an i will not stop. we never get the hard stuff done by taking it easy. i have time to take things easy after this week.
did i ever say how awesome my friends are? well , THEY ARE AWESOME!! yes, that means YOU. Ebony had read my post from yesterday an said she was go to talk her house church, what ever that is, an a friend to see if she can help out on stuff. bambam said she would make sure that i had what i needed. piglet said she was talk with her mom in law who is a cna to see how she could help. ash an stephen, kara an nicki, have all stated that they would help me learn things. shortie said she was go make cookies an watch a movie with me. then there is the big stuff. mama canady an rachel, are really wanting to squeeze the stuffing out of me, they both have say they want to hug me, lol. an then josi an cher an jasi all just are awesome. i cannot wait to visit them, and, since i am putting my messed up mind to it, it will happen. no joke.
there have been so many times i thought i was going thro this alone, was a lone, was going to have to do all this alone once i am home, an the whole time i have had an army of supporters, at my side, helping me get through every step of this, even when i did not see it. this month is november an thanksgiving is next week, but this is an early thing. i am thankful, blessed, an honored to have such awesome friends. friends who will stand by me even when i do not want them too or feel like they arenot there. friends who will tell me when i am wrong, when i am doing something wrong, an who will take the time to show me what it is that needs to be corrected. friends who are there to lift me up, encourage me, support me, guide an help me, an love me even when i feel i do not deserve it and/or when they themselves are in a rough patch. i know i do not deserve them, but they feel i do, an i am honored to be called their friend an to call them friend. always and forever
My dear girl , what a lovely post.
ReplyDeleteYou are right, you have some amazing friends that are willing to love you through the good times and the bad. Those are the true friends. Most people can only claim one or two people as true friends. You my dear have been greatly blessed!
You are right, I can't wait to hug you big time! Please put on a couple more pounds first, I don't want to break you.
I am so proud of you for working so hard. Some people would have given up when they heard they only had a week of PT left. But not you! Way to go, use the gifts given to you while you are there.
Has anyone suggested that you apply for temporary disability? I believe you can get it through Social Security. It isn't a lot of money per month but it would give you insurance to cover some more PT. Ask your Dr. About it, he / she might be able to help. There should be a social worker at the hospital that might be able to help you too. Use whatever services are available at the hospital to make your life a little easier when you get out.