8 hours of sleep is becoming a common thing. i still need to learn how to make meself take naps.
9-1030 was pt. me lift my arms above me head, yay. me legs are the hardest thing to work on. had pt gain from 3-345. i quit. i was try so hard an then got frustrated an quit. such a failure.
ate some apple jacks this morning. food is staying down. and for all those who have been wondering yes i am over the meningitis.
today e is very frustrate with lots of stuff, but me is be very prideful, cuz me does not want to upset anyone, an there for me is be selfish.
me is get new phone because me phone company is freakin dumb.
got to talk wit stephen a lot. last night him scared me. me is glad him is ok tho. us talk about the zoo an snow. him say that him an ash would love to pick me up the day me get ot the hospital. that would be awesome. me just have to wait for a response. i hate have to go thro people for decisions.
my face is al most back to normal. my hair is grow in fast. i asked to put a pick on me face on facebook an got a NO response. boo on them. me may just do it anyways. no joke.
me could rant but me is not go to.me just feel hopeless. disappointed. burdened. a failure. an the whole day me has struggled with a few big decisions. sometimes i think, this room, this building, may become me indefinite place, no joke. but what sucks most is that most of what me is feel, me can talk to no one bout. me feel me support system has dwindled. an those that say them is there, are not, so me has just give up on even try. cuz me has try an try an try an it has done nothing.
me is sit at me window watch the guest tv, waiting to see the snow fall, if it does. n me is think bout me message from god on facebook which said stop hiding from life an do what is deep in your heart. it is like it is rubbing it in my face, cuz what is deep in my heart, will never be a reality now. so there for, god, your message sucks today an do not you know that it is rude to rub stuff in peoples face?
sometimes i think that god, who ever him is or where ever him is, is laughing at this adventure called my life, thinking this mistake sure was a hilarious one. only keeping my life going to get a good laugh at it. and before you decide to tell me what i am thinking is wrong, remember it is just a opinion, and it is not cool to tell people that what they think is wrong. yes, this is come from a hypocrite. so deal with it.
9-1030 was pt. me lift my arms above me head, yay. me legs are the hardest thing to work on. had pt gain from 3-345. i quit. i was try so hard an then got frustrated an quit. such a failure.
ate some apple jacks this morning. food is staying down. and for all those who have been wondering yes i am over the meningitis.
today e is very frustrate with lots of stuff, but me is be very prideful, cuz me does not want to upset anyone, an there for me is be selfish.
me is get new phone because me phone company is freakin dumb.
got to talk wit stephen a lot. last night him scared me. me is glad him is ok tho. us talk about the zoo an snow. him say that him an ash would love to pick me up the day me get ot the hospital. that would be awesome. me just have to wait for a response. i hate have to go thro people for decisions.
my face is al most back to normal. my hair is grow in fast. i asked to put a pick on me face on facebook an got a NO response. boo on them. me may just do it anyways. no joke.
me could rant but me is not go to.me just feel hopeless. disappointed. burdened. a failure. an the whole day me has struggled with a few big decisions. sometimes i think, this room, this building, may become me indefinite place, no joke. but what sucks most is that most of what me is feel, me can talk to no one bout. me feel me support system has dwindled. an those that say them is there, are not, so me has just give up on even try. cuz me has try an try an try an it has done nothing.
me is sit at me window watch the guest tv, waiting to see the snow fall, if it does. n me is think bout me message from god on facebook which said stop hiding from life an do what is deep in your heart. it is like it is rubbing it in my face, cuz what is deep in my heart, will never be a reality now. so there for, god, your message sucks today an do not you know that it is rude to rub stuff in peoples face?
sometimes i think that god, who ever him is or where ever him is, is laughing at this adventure called my life, thinking this mistake sure was a hilarious one. only keeping my life going to get a good laugh at it. and before you decide to tell me what i am thinking is wrong, remember it is just a opinion, and it is not cool to tell people that what they think is wrong. yes, this is come from a hypocrite. so deal with it.
Honey...I'm so sorry that the last week-ish has been so crazy for me. I hope you know that I love you and I'm sorry for not being more available to talk to you. Things are all messed up in my head right now....I'm working on making things make sense, and I am working on being less selfish with my time.
ReplyDeleteYou are so important to me. This is not going to last forever, and you WILL get better and you WILL get out of the hospital. You're too stubborn not too!