yesterday after i posted my blog post cady an i went outside...cady kept barking at the kids that were going back an forth thro the alley an the dog that was running lose. we sat on the steps for the longest time before she went on her barking rage. we looked like taht kids book with the boy an his dog looking into the sunset. cady really liked that i was sitting out there with her. well when she went on her rage i let her in the house. then i was not to be seen til 1130 ish or so. i came in an ate a bowl of apple jacks an did the dishes. then i went to bed at like 130-45ish. at 340 something cady started sticking her nose in my face...she wanted out so i let her out, an i stayed up...7 came around an people started waking up. stephen made breakfast and then i went to the table. at about 10 i got on google plus an ranted a bit....carryover from yesterday. then, stephen ash an jess were running around the house whispering and stuff an i was like whatever just ask or whatever. and finally they did but they still would not believe me. they left at 1130 ish. i was going to go with them but after i saw how they were acting i thought it best that i should not...i was upset, which carried over from the last few days, so i did not want to cause ny problems. so i stayed put. they left and i finished watching how to train your dragon.
then as if i was not already trying to deal with enough emotions my dad sends me a few videos an says watch them, you know this may be your last christmas with anyone of us an you are not going to be here...the videos were 9/11 tribute, ladder 49 to shine your light, an foo fighters performing my hero. he wanted me to think about my uncle an how he is regretting all the christmases an all taht that he missed with his son. so by this point i was in tears...and ontop of that i felt like a jerk for not going an blah.
i decided to do dishes, and then cady an i went an sat on the porch. she really liked it. then we went in because my feet were cold. i was thinking about lunch but decided not to eat cuz i figured they would either bring something back or fix something when they got back...and i did not want to be rude an go ahead an eat....not that i was that hungry.
so i watched wizards an they returned....then left an it was coming an going all day. they were gone for 3 hours the first time. i decided i needed a nap, which i did not take, and that it wold get me out of my mood....nope i am still in the same mood. and it lit sucks. a lot.
i skyped with bambam an it was great....short but great...an very interesting an awkward.
and now everyone is here watching shows an wrapping stuff. and eating candy.
so now i am just waiting to see if this mood is going to change...cuz it needs too. and well we will see how my night plays out.
how to train your dragon was good. i had not seen it but it was on my computer. so i watched it. who ever told me that i remind them of that kid was right. no joke.
so this is my blog post as short as it is....deal with it.
then as if i was not already trying to deal with enough emotions my dad sends me a few videos an says watch them, you know this may be your last christmas with anyone of us an you are not going to be here...the videos were 9/11 tribute, ladder 49 to shine your light, an foo fighters performing my hero. he wanted me to think about my uncle an how he is regretting all the christmases an all taht that he missed with his son. so by this point i was in tears...and ontop of that i felt like a jerk for not going an blah.
i decided to do dishes, and then cady an i went an sat on the porch. she really liked it. then we went in because my feet were cold. i was thinking about lunch but decided not to eat cuz i figured they would either bring something back or fix something when they got back...and i did not want to be rude an go ahead an eat....not that i was that hungry.
so i watched wizards an they returned....then left an it was coming an going all day. they were gone for 3 hours the first time. i decided i needed a nap, which i did not take, and that it wold get me out of my mood....nope i am still in the same mood. and it lit sucks. a lot.
i skyped with bambam an it was great....short but great...an very interesting an awkward.
and now everyone is here watching shows an wrapping stuff. and eating candy.
so now i am just waiting to see if this mood is going to change...cuz it needs too. and well we will see how my night plays out.
how to train your dragon was good. i had not seen it but it was on my computer. so i watched it. who ever told me that i remind them of that kid was right. no joke.
so this is my blog post as short as it is....deal with it.
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