i made the couch up and turned off the light. i layed down an covered up. the tv was on an it was cops, an kcmo cops none the less. i thot i would leave it on all night but then decided not to. i remember turning off the tv an that is it. i was out.
i had this horrible dream that half the world had exploded an to replace it was like the past. and people were entering it. tho warned not too cuz bad things would happen. well i saw bubbles in this world an i wanted her bt for the reasons konwn i knew i could not go get her.
so this am i woke with tears in my eyes an i almost started crying. but i got ahold of myself...but still boo.
i heard my alarm go off an it is what woke me. i was going to get out of bed but my body just would not let me. i listened as ash was eating an moving around, i felt bad. boo. no joke.
i decided yesterday that i was going to rest all day, well i did not sleep none or nap, but i did stay home all day. tomorrow .. we will see what will happen.
it is supposed to snow an freeze rain or so i have been told...the forcast changes like 2ice a day. but if it is snowing an stuff, i do not know if i will go out any where...i have hard enough time as it is. my cane makes so much noise on the floor that it is hard trying to find a way to use it the way i need to an not wake everyone up. i have fell a few time while i have been here but it has not been that bad.
stephen tried improving the wheelchair by making a makeshift foot rest. it lasted about 1 second. it was hillarious watching him tho.
so stephen an jess woke up an went to central, and then came back an went to taco bell. we ate at the table. which is nice, i like that. they say it is eating as a family. we sat around an watched yes dear. then ash got home.
jess left to go to lauren's for the night.
i thought it was going to be an epic night, an not that it has not been, but it has been a good night. we got pizza, an have watching comedy shows all night. now ash is over on the loveseat with stephen a sleep.
i think i ate half a pizza.
all day my leg has been killing me. it has given out on me a few times. right now i cannot move it. what is funny is it feels as tho my leg is tensed up an i know it is not.
in no way do i mean to complain about anything in my blog posts unless i say i am complaining about it.
i got another voicemail from my granma...she said she talked to my dad a few days back an he was sobbing. so i texted him an i asked him if he was okay, he said yes, an i told him not to lie to me, he still said yes. i told him i am always here for him. my brother got moved today, an my sister is stressing him out. my dad never cries. i have only seen him cry once in my life. he is also having computer problems so i text him an told him you try this an that an then text me an let me know if it worked or did not work he has not text me yet. my aunt called all stressed out because my insurance stuff is on his computer. an this an that an she still has not go the tags on my car renewed.
then there is me. haha. i feel like a little kid during a big bad thunderstorm. i just want to hide under the covers and stay there. i feel really insecure. and i feel really bad, an in a small way an inconvienence...or somthing like that. i feel bad because i cannot do much to help out around here, an when i try offering or paying for something everyone is like no it is ok.
i have an app on my phone called sticky notes or colored notes an i use it to write down stuff so i do not forget. it is better than the notes an list that i keep on facebook cuz they are easy to find. i do not think we are going to accomplish much on that list bu tthat is ok. i am enjoying my time with ash an stephen an cady.
i told ash that cady only has somethng to do with me when others are here an she is like it is probably because you do not talk. i told her that yesterday or i put it in my blog. today cady got up on the couch with me after stephen made her an she kept rolling around an licking my face it was funny. she loves it when i rub her muzzel.
well....for now that is all. which was not much.
i had this horrible dream that half the world had exploded an to replace it was like the past. and people were entering it. tho warned not too cuz bad things would happen. well i saw bubbles in this world an i wanted her bt for the reasons konwn i knew i could not go get her.
so this am i woke with tears in my eyes an i almost started crying. but i got ahold of myself...but still boo.
i heard my alarm go off an it is what woke me. i was going to get out of bed but my body just would not let me. i listened as ash was eating an moving around, i felt bad. boo. no joke.
i decided yesterday that i was going to rest all day, well i did not sleep none or nap, but i did stay home all day. tomorrow .. we will see what will happen.
it is supposed to snow an freeze rain or so i have been told...the forcast changes like 2ice a day. but if it is snowing an stuff, i do not know if i will go out any where...i have hard enough time as it is. my cane makes so much noise on the floor that it is hard trying to find a way to use it the way i need to an not wake everyone up. i have fell a few time while i have been here but it has not been that bad.
stephen tried improving the wheelchair by making a makeshift foot rest. it lasted about 1 second. it was hillarious watching him tho.
so stephen an jess woke up an went to central, and then came back an went to taco bell. we ate at the table. which is nice, i like that. they say it is eating as a family. we sat around an watched yes dear. then ash got home.
jess left to go to lauren's for the night.
i thought it was going to be an epic night, an not that it has not been, but it has been a good night. we got pizza, an have watching comedy shows all night. now ash is over on the loveseat with stephen a sleep.
i think i ate half a pizza.
all day my leg has been killing me. it has given out on me a few times. right now i cannot move it. what is funny is it feels as tho my leg is tensed up an i know it is not.
in no way do i mean to complain about anything in my blog posts unless i say i am complaining about it.
i got another voicemail from my granma...she said she talked to my dad a few days back an he was sobbing. so i texted him an i asked him if he was okay, he said yes, an i told him not to lie to me, he still said yes. i told him i am always here for him. my brother got moved today, an my sister is stressing him out. my dad never cries. i have only seen him cry once in my life. he is also having computer problems so i text him an told him you try this an that an then text me an let me know if it worked or did not work he has not text me yet. my aunt called all stressed out because my insurance stuff is on his computer. an this an that an she still has not go the tags on my car renewed.
then there is me. haha. i feel like a little kid during a big bad thunderstorm. i just want to hide under the covers and stay there. i feel really insecure. and i feel really bad, an in a small way an inconvienence...or somthing like that. i feel bad because i cannot do much to help out around here, an when i try offering or paying for something everyone is like no it is ok.
i have an app on my phone called sticky notes or colored notes an i use it to write down stuff so i do not forget. it is better than the notes an list that i keep on facebook cuz they are easy to find. i do not think we are going to accomplish much on that list bu tthat is ok. i am enjoying my time with ash an stephen an cady.
i told ash that cady only has somethng to do with me when others are here an she is like it is probably because you do not talk. i told her that yesterday or i put it in my blog. today cady got up on the couch with me after stephen made her an she kept rolling around an licking my face it was funny. she loves it when i rub her muzzel.
well....for now that is all. which was not much.
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