the village was alright. after i saw the monsters i was like that is dumb, looks like something from the saw movies. the movie turned out to be dumb. i mean it was good but it was a dumb good. like a , seriously?!, kind of movie.
then i started to watch this other movie with stephen an i guess the rest was recorded so i will finish it tomorrow maybe. right now we are watching the fugitive.
so piglet text me an asked me if i wanted to come over. i was like sure. so she came to pick me up. i got my book an crayons an pencils gathered an i added my bible with it. the one that bambam got me. the one that has most of my cards in it. i do not know what happened to my flash cards. or i would have brought those here too. so yep. piglet came an i decided that if i was going over there to "babysit"her, lol jk, i was going to keep her company, than i would not take any thing. plus that bible is heavy an i cannot carry it. i forgot my kid bible at my dads house. boo. so i went to piglets. the dogs were really happy to see me. every time i see, the black one, i instantly see bubbles. so much alike.
side note - stephen was talking about putting cady down, he was joking of course, an ash was like i do not know of anyone that would ever do that. well when i had to give up brownye i told my dad take him an put him down. my main reason was i guess some peace of mind an selfishness. my first dog missy was put to sleep because of arthristis in her hips. my dad had to help her get outside. it was a friday an i was in school in the 3rd grade i went home an she was not there, then my dad told me, i was upset cuz i did not even get to say goodbye. and well that is it.
i love my dog very much. and if she was here she would be snuggled with me...no joke an then elvis would be very depressed. lol.
but we worked on numbers an letters. and piglet started reading some of the chapter....and then....then...then....SURPRISE!!! NO JOKE!! in walked shortie an valarie. i was very happy to see shortie. i had just text her asking when she was going to come see me. lol. valarie kept text me an piglet was answering them, yep. an i kinda knew i was going to see shortie. haha. but it was great. piglet got up an went to shower. valarie an shortie were on each side of me. there were times i tuned out. esp when they started talking about god an youth group an church. lol. what is funny tho is piglet had me play bible trivia an i got 10-10 right...but i have that game on my phone an i have it memorized...lol. you get very bored in the hospital. no joke.
got home an stephen an ash were on the love seat....awww...lol. i was going to put on my warm jeans but did not have time too. an i also did not grab a blanket. i did eat tho. the only thing i had all day was a banana, an i love spelling that word with swype on my phone, an while at piglets my stomach was growling, loud. haha. the dogs got off me thinking there was another dog around. lol.
so i bundled up an got in the car. i listened to my grandparents all night....boy you should have heard them....old people are funny. we got to the post office an parked...we were going to living windows...yep so rather would have gone to holiday park. no joke. stephen got the wheel chair out an set it up. no foot rest. so the whole time i killed my legs. i was not going to complain tho. i was tired an cold, ok frozen an in pain by the time we got back to the car. i was surprised i could stand an walk to get in the car. haha.
side note - so the last two days i have been losing my balance a lot. i have almost fallen back wards down the back steps 3 times, forward 4 times, i cannot tell you how many times just walking places. hmmmm....hope i am not going backwards. but i prob do need to do some physical pt....to work my legs an balance.
riding in the wheel chair was not that bad. i was greatful for it an greatful for stephen an ash. but to be honest the best few parts of that living window thing was santa, the one group of people that could actually sing, and the puppys! :) the 3 legged dog was like a tention breaker for me. let me explain.
so in the hospital when you are going places in a wheel chair it is not weird an people do not stop an stare. it was a change for me. i had never been in a wheelchair in a public place. but i did not think much of it. then we started going down the street an people were stopping an staring an looking, and i mean okay look, but do not give me the look, that i got so much, like i am some disgusting thing. haha. not cool. i mean kids i can understand. an i know when i was sitting on my leg a lot of people were double taking to see if i had both legs, which was sort of funny. so when that 3 legged dog came along, made me smile...he did not care, an i felt really bad that i did. i was trying everything not to cry for most of the last half. i was ready to go. i felt so embarassed. no joke.
we got to the car an i was trying to move my feet, an they were dead. ash opened the door an i just prayed, if i fall, well, knock me out, haha. no joke. i was glad when i stood an stayed stood. even gladder when i was able to walk into the car. i was scared that i was not going to be able to. we got in the car an we went to santa fe. i had never been there before. we got out of the car an went in. i ordered water an a burrito mexicano which turned out to be a burrito mexicano an a sweet tea thanks to my grandma. lol. ash said i had to try the sweet tea but hers is better. food came an i ate most of it, but i was shaking the whole time....my legs hurt that muchan i was freezing. it was not til we were at santa fe that they had realized i had no phone so no means of communication. well i had finished 3/4ths of my food. and i was ready to walk out of there...i was fighting crying the whole time. haha. i do not know what is wrong with me. maybe i have reached my limit?! maybe i have finally totally exhausted my mind to its full extent?! i am staying home tomorrow, i am not going anywhere. unless i am asked to by ash an/or stephen an even then i do not know if i will. i think i need to rest for a day or two.
there is other things that are bothering me but, this place cannot contain it. haha.
i just know tomorrow...i am giving people hugs....*cough cough* and i am spending time with both ash an stephen. if it was not for them, haha, an many others, but a lot being them, i do not think i would have made it out of the hospital, i do not think i would be doing so well as i am right now. they have been amazing friends an i am lucky to have them in my life.
what is sad is i left their wedding present at my dads house....yep i suck. haha.
so ash is like brittany will be fine she has on what 5 layers...nope it was 7 layers, an 3 on the bottom half. but my legs were frozen. lol. i thought it was pointless to drink hot choco when it would only solve the prob for a minute or two. yep. something else sad. jasi wanted a picture of me smiling so stephen took one. jasi an ash both say i do not smile in my pics...that is cuz i hate the way i look...but like i said before that is because i still see the sick me. another sad thing. my belt fits aroundme 1 1/2 times. no joke. my jeans are all scrunched up...that is how small i am all my muscles are jiggly non muscles. and my hair is like a redish color. idk if i am the only one noticing this but it is true. maybe it is just me.
i play word with friends an hanging with friends. and i cannot tell yo how frustrating that is. i guess most my words that i spell, not knowing if they are words or not. an people just butcher me with these huge words. i will have 30 pts an most my friends will have 200-300 pts. boo. no joke.
i have also been playing memory on facebook. it is a big hard but i am getting better at it.
well it is bed time...today has been good. aside from the pain an the killing an the urge to cry an other stuff. tomorrow will be great too. the way i see it as i learned from the hospital, because it was a everyday matter, that no matter how bad the day might have been that i need to look at the next day as it will be better. but i am way out of spoons. so goodnight!
then i started to watch this other movie with stephen an i guess the rest was recorded so i will finish it tomorrow maybe. right now we are watching the fugitive.
so piglet text me an asked me if i wanted to come over. i was like sure. so she came to pick me up. i got my book an crayons an pencils gathered an i added my bible with it. the one that bambam got me. the one that has most of my cards in it. i do not know what happened to my flash cards. or i would have brought those here too. so yep. piglet came an i decided that if i was going over there to "babysit"her, lol jk, i was going to keep her company, than i would not take any thing. plus that bible is heavy an i cannot carry it. i forgot my kid bible at my dads house. boo. so i went to piglets. the dogs were really happy to see me. every time i see, the black one, i instantly see bubbles. so much alike.
side note - stephen was talking about putting cady down, he was joking of course, an ash was like i do not know of anyone that would ever do that. well when i had to give up brownye i told my dad take him an put him down. my main reason was i guess some peace of mind an selfishness. my first dog missy was put to sleep because of arthristis in her hips. my dad had to help her get outside. it was a friday an i was in school in the 3rd grade i went home an she was not there, then my dad told me, i was upset cuz i did not even get to say goodbye. and well that is it.
i love my dog very much. and if she was here she would be snuggled with me...no joke an then elvis would be very depressed. lol.
but we worked on numbers an letters. and piglet started reading some of the chapter....and then....then...then....SURPRISE!!! NO JOKE!! in walked shortie an valarie. i was very happy to see shortie. i had just text her asking when she was going to come see me. lol. valarie kept text me an piglet was answering them, yep. an i kinda knew i was going to see shortie. haha. but it was great. piglet got up an went to shower. valarie an shortie were on each side of me. there were times i tuned out. esp when they started talking about god an youth group an church. lol. what is funny tho is piglet had me play bible trivia an i got 10-10 right...but i have that game on my phone an i have it memorized...lol. you get very bored in the hospital. no joke.
got home an stephen an ash were on the love seat....awww...lol. i was going to put on my warm jeans but did not have time too. an i also did not grab a blanket. i did eat tho. the only thing i had all day was a banana, an i love spelling that word with swype on my phone, an while at piglets my stomach was growling, loud. haha. the dogs got off me thinking there was another dog around. lol.
so i bundled up an got in the car. i listened to my grandparents all night....boy you should have heard them....old people are funny. we got to the post office an parked...we were going to living windows...yep so rather would have gone to holiday park. no joke. stephen got the wheel chair out an set it up. no foot rest. so the whole time i killed my legs. i was not going to complain tho. i was tired an cold, ok frozen an in pain by the time we got back to the car. i was surprised i could stand an walk to get in the car. haha.
side note - so the last two days i have been losing my balance a lot. i have almost fallen back wards down the back steps 3 times, forward 4 times, i cannot tell you how many times just walking places. hmmmm....hope i am not going backwards. but i prob do need to do some physical pt....to work my legs an balance.
riding in the wheel chair was not that bad. i was greatful for it an greatful for stephen an ash. but to be honest the best few parts of that living window thing was santa, the one group of people that could actually sing, and the puppys! :) the 3 legged dog was like a tention breaker for me. let me explain.
so in the hospital when you are going places in a wheel chair it is not weird an people do not stop an stare. it was a change for me. i had never been in a wheelchair in a public place. but i did not think much of it. then we started going down the street an people were stopping an staring an looking, and i mean okay look, but do not give me the look, that i got so much, like i am some disgusting thing. haha. not cool. i mean kids i can understand. an i know when i was sitting on my leg a lot of people were double taking to see if i had both legs, which was sort of funny. so when that 3 legged dog came along, made me smile...he did not care, an i felt really bad that i did. i was trying everything not to cry for most of the last half. i was ready to go. i felt so embarassed. no joke.
we got to the car an i was trying to move my feet, an they were dead. ash opened the door an i just prayed, if i fall, well, knock me out, haha. no joke. i was glad when i stood an stayed stood. even gladder when i was able to walk into the car. i was scared that i was not going to be able to. we got in the car an we went to santa fe. i had never been there before. we got out of the car an went in. i ordered water an a burrito mexicano which turned out to be a burrito mexicano an a sweet tea thanks to my grandma. lol. ash said i had to try the sweet tea but hers is better. food came an i ate most of it, but i was shaking the whole time....my legs hurt that muchan i was freezing. it was not til we were at santa fe that they had realized i had no phone so no means of communication. well i had finished 3/4ths of my food. and i was ready to walk out of there...i was fighting crying the whole time. haha. i do not know what is wrong with me. maybe i have reached my limit?! maybe i have finally totally exhausted my mind to its full extent?! i am staying home tomorrow, i am not going anywhere. unless i am asked to by ash an/or stephen an even then i do not know if i will. i think i need to rest for a day or two.
there is other things that are bothering me but, this place cannot contain it. haha.
i just know tomorrow...i am giving people hugs....*cough cough* and i am spending time with both ash an stephen. if it was not for them, haha, an many others, but a lot being them, i do not think i would have made it out of the hospital, i do not think i would be doing so well as i am right now. they have been amazing friends an i am lucky to have them in my life.
what is sad is i left their wedding present at my dads house....yep i suck. haha.
so ash is like brittany will be fine she has on what 5 layers...nope it was 7 layers, an 3 on the bottom half. but my legs were frozen. lol. i thought it was pointless to drink hot choco when it would only solve the prob for a minute or two. yep. something else sad. jasi wanted a picture of me smiling so stephen took one. jasi an ash both say i do not smile in my pics...that is cuz i hate the way i look...but like i said before that is because i still see the sick me. another sad thing. my belt fits aroundme 1 1/2 times. no joke. my jeans are all scrunched up...that is how small i am all my muscles are jiggly non muscles. and my hair is like a redish color. idk if i am the only one noticing this but it is true. maybe it is just me.
i play word with friends an hanging with friends. and i cannot tell yo how frustrating that is. i guess most my words that i spell, not knowing if they are words or not. an people just butcher me with these huge words. i will have 30 pts an most my friends will have 200-300 pts. boo. no joke.
i have also been playing memory on facebook. it is a big hard but i am getting better at it.
well it is bed time...today has been good. aside from the pain an the killing an the urge to cry an other stuff. tomorrow will be great too. the way i see it as i learned from the hospital, because it was a everyday matter, that no matter how bad the day might have been that i need to look at the next day as it will be better. but i am way out of spoons. so goodnight!
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