there is a story behind the title but i am not going to say what it is.
i would blog about my last few days but i can only remember, if even this much, bits. ok...i am trying to trigger my memory....let me see...saturday...i sat around waiting for piglet to show....then that night we went to walmart an piglet came an joined us for dinner....ash said i was in a real good mood which i mean i was, but it was more so because that was the day that crap happened in st jo....mainly two unnamed guys, who have already caused me enough problems....tried breaking into our house, the neighbors called the cops, an helped scare them off along with my brother dustin, an the dogs...4 am in the morn. two windows broken dads tires slashed...so the whole day i had been freaked out...scared...an that night with piglet an the jones all that scaredness an stuff disappeared.
sunday we went to a new church......i like the gaithers....my granpas fav. but they were not the gaithers. not even close. and i was fine until ash mentioned it to jess....and then i got real sad. but church is so boring...old bald guys do a lot of talking about nothing an puts people to sleep....that day we made lunch an dinner an ate...and went to bed.
yesterday i woke up an sat with ash like i almost always do, then mcguire showed up. we went to law te cafe an had a scone/cinnomon roll with tea/coffee. it was good seeing her...and she knows abcs in sign so it was fun confusing her. lol. we then went to walmart an got flowers.....i pushed myself an there is something wrong with the wheels on those things. we came back and that was the end of our visit. cady an i sat on the porch for a bit, then came in, it was almost 12 when everyone else started coming out of their caves. the day passed an ash got off, at first i thought she was mad, seemed that way, but i guess i was wrong, but everyone else thot it too. ash an i went to walmart....i held everything. we had taco salad.it was a bit messy, now i need to wash my jeans. lol. stephen got my phone working for a bit, now it is not working again.
bed time came an cady an i have been sleeping on the couch for about 4 nights now....she likes sleeping next to me....tho i cannot tell you the times i have woke up on the floor...haha...but it is ok.
my forhead still hurts to the touch...the other day i was playing with cady, saturday, an she kept hitting me in the face, it only hurt when she hit me on the forhead an then i kept hitting my head on the floor trying to avoid her mouth or paw from getting my eyes or nose. it hurt...i almost started crying. cady is starting to get better around me...well like wise. she will sit an lay with me, she follows me every where, she wakes me up to let her out to potty, she loves to play, and she greets me more an more the way she greets everyone else....jumping an all that good stuff. i usu have to be by a wall cuz she tries every time to knock me over.
over the weekend...i tried my best to not let anything weigh my smile down...but there were times where my legs would cramp an get stiff or like jello an i thot i was going to fall....
sleep has been one thing in itself. i go to bed not too long after the jones and i sleep good for the first few hours an then after 1 i am basically up til i go to bed that night. i try to take naps, i try to sleep...i just cannot. i am afriad it is going to mess with everything i have going for me too...like walking an the talking an the grammar an etc. i hope not.
it would be nice to sleep for more than 2-4 hours tho. it is messing with my head fo sho...my head hurts....but it is something i will get over.
i have been frustrated because my phone is not working or keeps being deactivated....and it is my main voice so without it i am silenced.
it is sad but i told mcguire...haha...i am not sure if i am going to go to st. jo...this is home for me...one it is the only place i know right now....two with everything going on in st jo...i do not need that....but then there is bubbles...an stardust...so i guess i must go back for a bit...right...the other day i was just thinking of going out to visit kara aan joey for a few days an the thought of leaving here...leaving the jones...made me choke up..
but this is how it is in life. we make sacrifices, we let our hearts get broken, an we learn to deal.
i would blog about my last few days but i can only remember, if even this much, bits. ok...i am trying to trigger my memory....let me see...saturday...i sat around waiting for piglet to show....then that night we went to walmart an piglet came an joined us for dinner....ash said i was in a real good mood which i mean i was, but it was more so because that was the day that crap happened in st jo....mainly two unnamed guys, who have already caused me enough problems....tried breaking into our house, the neighbors called the cops, an helped scare them off along with my brother dustin, an the dogs...4 am in the morn. two windows broken dads tires slashed...so the whole day i had been freaked out...scared...an that night with piglet an the jones all that scaredness an stuff disappeared.
sunday we went to a new church......i like the gaithers....my granpas fav. but they were not the gaithers. not even close. and i was fine until ash mentioned it to jess....and then i got real sad. but church is so boring...old bald guys do a lot of talking about nothing an puts people to sleep....that day we made lunch an dinner an ate...and went to bed.
yesterday i woke up an sat with ash like i almost always do, then mcguire showed up. we went to law te cafe an had a scone/cinnomon roll with tea/coffee. it was good seeing her...and she knows abcs in sign so it was fun confusing her. lol. we then went to walmart an got flowers.....i pushed myself an there is something wrong with the wheels on those things. we came back and that was the end of our visit. cady an i sat on the porch for a bit, then came in, it was almost 12 when everyone else started coming out of their caves. the day passed an ash got off, at first i thought she was mad, seemed that way, but i guess i was wrong, but everyone else thot it too. ash an i went to walmart....i held everything. we had taco salad.it was a bit messy, now i need to wash my jeans. lol. stephen got my phone working for a bit, now it is not working again.
bed time came an cady an i have been sleeping on the couch for about 4 nights now....she likes sleeping next to me....tho i cannot tell you the times i have woke up on the floor...haha...but it is ok.
my forhead still hurts to the touch...the other day i was playing with cady, saturday, an she kept hitting me in the face, it only hurt when she hit me on the forhead an then i kept hitting my head on the floor trying to avoid her mouth or paw from getting my eyes or nose. it hurt...i almost started crying. cady is starting to get better around me...well like wise. she will sit an lay with me, she follows me every where, she wakes me up to let her out to potty, she loves to play, and she greets me more an more the way she greets everyone else....jumping an all that good stuff. i usu have to be by a wall cuz she tries every time to knock me over.
over the weekend...i tried my best to not let anything weigh my smile down...but there were times where my legs would cramp an get stiff or like jello an i thot i was going to fall....
sleep has been one thing in itself. i go to bed not too long after the jones and i sleep good for the first few hours an then after 1 i am basically up til i go to bed that night. i try to take naps, i try to sleep...i just cannot. i am afriad it is going to mess with everything i have going for me too...like walking an the talking an the grammar an etc. i hope not.
it would be nice to sleep for more than 2-4 hours tho. it is messing with my head fo sho...my head hurts....but it is something i will get over.
i have been frustrated because my phone is not working or keeps being deactivated....and it is my main voice so without it i am silenced.
it is sad but i told mcguire...haha...i am not sure if i am going to go to st. jo...this is home for me...one it is the only place i know right now....two with everything going on in st jo...i do not need that....but then there is bubbles...an stardust...so i guess i must go back for a bit...right...the other day i was just thinking of going out to visit kara aan joey for a few days an the thought of leaving here...leaving the jones...made me choke up..
but this is how it is in life. we make sacrifices, we let our hearts get broken, an we learn to deal.
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